FIXATION

Chapter 3

EDEN POV

I ran out of there as fast as my feet could take me. Ross didn't even stop to notice what was happening. Or what had happened. He just took that Monique up to his room to have their dirty ways together while I was stuck in someone else's vomit and soaked! Well, I guess the water washed away the vomit, but it was still a very disgusting experience. What hurt the most is that Ross didn't even defend me. He could have told Monique to stop easily, and she would've. If he had asked. But he didn't. He just grabbed her and kissed her. Making the situation more uncomfortable and unbearable.

I loved him. But he clearly only saw me as a pet. As someone he supposedly owned. I was tired of it. I had things to do I had to plan my life better. Did I really want to remain in this situation forever?

As I was walking home, I noticed a couple of motorcycles driving around. Obviously belonging to Ross's gang. It had to be them. I ran and hid behind the nearest bushes I could find hoping that they wouldn't find me. It was late. My parents thought I was at a friend's house. They never approved of my closeness to Ross. The late nights coming home when I was a teenager, the wild parties that happened at his house almost every single night. The smell of cigarettes and cannabis and alcohol on me even though I wasn't a smoker. The look on Ross's face when he brought me home his eyes were constantly red and shut down from all the drugs he was taking. The way he dressed, the way he looked my parents were religious people and wanted me to hang out with people from church more often. Ross was completely the opposite of the kind of people my parents wanted around me.

I didn't care, I didn't judge I owed him my life and so I was his. But after today and many other nights that he had disrespected me in so many ways, I decided it was enough! He never once was physically abusive to me ever, but today was my breaking point his coldness at times hurt me more.

Monique had tormented me all throughout high school and he knew this and yet he continued to invite her to his parties, she would torment me some more there. She and her friends would laugh and make my life miserable every day and now my nights too? Hell no! I wasn't going to allow it. I was almost nineteen not a kid anymore. A woman with goals and dreams and Ross was only holding me back from achieving those dreams. I allowed him because I was in love with him. But how far can that go?

He will continue to allow his lover, my enemy, to get away with it all. I thought he cared for me more than that. The bikers were circling around maybe patrolling the streets as if they were the police. But they had contacts with the police, and it was all a big corruption. I wish we had never left Spain. I missed Julio my childhood friend and crush. He was my best friend growing up in our small Andalusian village, but we were so happy. My childhood was so happy, and Julio was a big part of it. I wondered how he looked now after all these years I wondered how he had changed and turned into a man. His beautiful wavy black hair covered his eyes because he could never decide how to wear it whether on his face or of it. He was so beautiful. I wish I could see him now. But last I heard he had moved to the USA to start a new life and all my letters got sent back to me. His parents moved to Barcelona and didn't leave an address, so I had no way of finding him.

I would give anything to hug him now. To tell him how my life had turned out. "A gem in a bag of rocks" he had called me meaning that I was always different than all the other girls he had met. He protected me too but not in the obsessive way Ross had. Julio was calm and gentle, and he never made any threats to me ever. He respected my decisions Ross demanded them.

I finally made it home unseen, and I went inside. Luckily my parents and siblings were sleeping. I went straight to the shower took a hot shower and slipped my pajamas on. Tomorrow I will avoid Ross like the flu!

ROSS POV

I didn't have to undress Monique she did it all on her own. Her and her two friends. Two of my other gang members whom I trusted with my life were in the other room with Monique's friends. I spotted Earl in the middle of the action I was pissed how dare he! he needed to get the hell out. I wasn't fully undressed yet I still had my pants on thank Goodness. Earl was a weird guy overall he rarely talked, but he was faithful at least he was for now. Monique liked these sorts of things she didn't mind being seen. She actually enjoyed it I think she was the one always suggesting we do it anywhere, at the bathroom in public bathrooms, in the car, anywhere she didn't care. I just went along with it to make her happy, but I wasn't 100% onboard honestly. It made me uncomfortable at times. Earl wanted to tell me something. I left Monique there and went to see what the hell Earl wanted. He better had something important to say!

"Sorry Boss, but umm you wanted me to let you know if anything was going on with Eden and we can't find her anywhere boss"

"WHAT!?" my whole world just turned black all I could see was black. How dare she!? No wonder I hadn't seen her around, but I thought she was just changing into the red dress I had told her to wear! She had defied me three times already! I was good at keeping my word and Eden will know the hard way that I never play around!

The first thing will be to attack her where it hurts her the most.

EDEN POV

I was having such a lovely dream. I was in a gorgeous place full of mountains and all kinds of beautiful flowers surrounding me. Just a peaceful atmosphere. In the distance, I could see a school far away. Ross was there dressed in white his hair was combed his expression was clean and calm. "Eden, I think that I am beginning to fall in love with you," he told me. He bends down to kiss me when I was woken up by a thunderous noise. Coming from outside. Was the dream a sign that I am getting into that Swiss school? God that would be unbelievable. Will I take the offer when the day comes? And if it comes. I'm ready to leave Ross behind. After so many years of being around him and surrounded by him and all his crazy wicked ways was I ready to start a life for myself? I wish he was different. I couldn't change him. He will always be Ross Lyner the worst man I have ever met. But he was him and I weirdly loved him for it. Besides Julio, he was the only man who had ever gotten this close to me, and they were both just friends.

But Ross was more than that. Way more than that. What he and I had was something totally different. It wasn't pure it wasn't good, but it was something that only he and I shared, and I had no idea what that was.

I didn't want to get up and see what the noise was. But I did anyway. The stars in the sky were mini lights to the darkest night. The cool air swept in brushing my body making it quiver when I opened my window. It was a cool night.
I didn't see Ross's guys anywhere around. Maybe he sent them home because he was angry, I left. Or maybe he didn't even notice that I was gone. I mean why would he? He was busy getting his dirty deeds done with that slut Monique!
"Calm down Eden," I told myself normally I wasn't this angry person. I let things fly away with the wind all the time. I learned to do so from a young age, but this was hard. He was sleeping with my enemy. He was sleeping with some other girl period!

"Bam bam"! Louder this time. The noise was coming from the roof of the house and then "slam"!!! A huge chunk of wood came tumbling down. I heard as it fell right on our kitchen floor. As if a tornado or natural disaster had destroyed our roof. My parents came rushing inside the kitchen turning all our lights on.
" Que Paso What happened?" my dad asked. "Part of the roof dad," I said. "Como? What?" My mom asked.
"I have no idea," I said. But I think I did. Deep down I think I did. somehow, I think Ross is involved somehow. No. He is not! I kept telling myself.

The morning came we were all sleeping in the living room. My brother, sister, and I were on the floor and my parents on both sofas. What a lousy night!

It was 7 am when someone was knocking at the door. "Did you call the insurance people last night Rogelio?"
My mom asked my dad.
"No, Miriam It was too late to call," my dad said.
"Then who can it be at this time?"
My sister went to open the door. My brother and I picked up the blankets from the floor.

"Eden is your boyfriend!" She yelled.

"My what...?" I went to see what she was saying and then I froze. Of course! Standing there in all his 6-foot 2 glory

Ross!