FIXATION

Chapter 27

Ross POV

It's been 3 stinking weeks. Luckily Eden believed that I was still in L.A and surprisingly Olivianna hadn't told her anything. I was relieved. I hated myself so much for what I did. I don't think I can keep up the lies anymore. Living without her would kill me though but these lies were killing me more. I couldn't do it anymore.

The lies the deceit. I had done them before all too many times I'm afraid but never to her. I was always honest with her.

I know I did a horrible thing but I am human after all not a saint. Courtney meant so much to me. Honestly, the reason why I got so obsessed with Eden was partly due to Court as I called her.

When we got older I developed a sense of protectiveness with Court. I knew she had issues since a very young age. So I wanted to help her. I had issues too but she was a young girl and in my opinion, girls deal with issues a totally different way.

I didn't want her hurt, raped, abused or killed by someone. She was around 12 around Eden's age when I first met Eden. Court was 12 when she started experimenting with heavy drugs. Our parents were part of the same drug pin but she didn't get it from them. She got it from other street people dangerous people.

I took it upon myself to defend her and be there for her and in the process I fell in love with her. She stopped taking drugs and was sober for about a year but then a fight with her mom got her back on them.

She had friends in L.A. and moved there. I thought she would be safer far, far away from here and the bad people she knew here.

I knew she was in L.A but never did it cross my mind that I would run in to her or worse yet. That she was now a drug pin lord of her own in L.A. she was the one who summoned my business there. She had so many people working for her in this business and became rich all on her own.

I guess I was in shock to see her. From the poor defenseless helpless girl, she was when she left Australia to the smart, businesswoman she was now..because even though what we did wasn't at all good. It was still business.

I told her I was engaged but that got her even more excited. She is engaged too. I met her fiance actually so I wasn't the only cheater. But Court didn't care at all. I did.

I had to block her number. She blew my phone up with all these messages and naked pictures of herself that I didn't care to see. Begging to have me back and to move to L.A with her and work on this business together as a team. But my heart belonged to another.

While Court was night. Eden was day. I had my fair share of night too much and I realized that the light is what makes me happy. Living in darkness is not for me anymore.

Too much drama, too much baggage, too many headaches. I didn't need nor want any of it. I loved Eden and all she represented. Some men fall in love with women and don't even really know why. They are more attracted to their appearances and I was the same way. I slept with almost all of Queensland and international women too but it always made me feel empty.

When Courtney left I was sad but I had Eden to occupy my thoughts on. Another damsel in distress except this one didn't have any baggage or problems. Well, besides her crazy mind. I would've helped Court to the end. But it was her decision to leave even though I helped her leave, but, once she was gone. I couldn't look back. I had to look forward.

I focused on Eden and I grew more and more in love with her. Her sweetness and kindness and always worried about others are annoying at times but it also says that she is a caring person and that she will care for me always and that is what I need.

But now I might lose her forever and just the thought of it made me cry again!. Hell!

I had to tell her though. I prayed that she would forgive me. That she would understand the situation and put herself in a sinners position for once. She seemed perfect but nobody was perfect.