Only In My Dreams

Chapter 4

A/N:  Sorry for taking a few days off.  I have been sick, and I couldn't get myself to sit up and actually write.  My mind just wasn't there.  However, I'm back now and I'm hoping to end this short story soon.  :)

Bas POV

I can't get it out of my mind. I just don't understand why Godt is taking sleeping pills. What is happening in his life that he has to force himself to sleep? Wait. Is that why he only showed himself for only a little bit the last time that he came? Did he wake up as soon as he got to my apartment? Is that why he is taking sleeping pills?

Nothing seems to make sense. I want him to come visit me every night and I don't know if I can go visit him or not. Well, I did go to him last night, but I'm mentally exhausted. I really missed him, and I couldn't stop hoping to see him. However, I'm left with more questions that answers right now.

I can't focus on my work and my manager is really starting to get irritated with me, but I did get a very important piece of information last night. I was able to see his mother's last name, which means that I now know his full name and I couldn't be happier. Godt Thanit keeps popping around my mind and I can't seem to think of anything else.

I actually had to stop myself earlier from trying to search for his social media accounts. I would love to see what is out there, and I'm hoping that there are plenty of funny pictures of him, too. That would make my day. Oh, if I could find out where he works, that would be a big bonus.

"BAS! WE ARE READY FOR YOU! HURRY UP! TIME IS MONEY!"

I quickly shake my head hoping to clear my mind of Godt as I hop up out of the chair and dash towards the director. I have another shoot for another music video today and I don't have extra time to fool around. They booked this so tight that we have to get the shots on the first or second try or we will end up going over which means that the music video will cost more. When that happens, it usually trickles down to me and the guys in our group, and it isn't very pleasant.

I yell out, "I'm coming! What scene are we doing this time?"

The director shakes his head. "I just told you a little bit ago! I hope you remember what you are supposed to be doing better than you remember what I tell you!"

I lower my head slightly as I stop in front of the director. "Sorry. I have a few things on my mind right now."

The director shakes his head. "Never mind. I hope that you have your head cleared now and are focused. Can we get this one in the first try?"

I flash him a brilliant smile and chime, "Yes."

I quickly focus my attention on the director and his staff. They run through what they want for the scene and how it is going to unfold. The rest of the band and I listen to what the director is saying, and we all nod in agreement.

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Oh, I'm so glad to be home finally. I thought that this day was never going to end. We did get everything done in only a few shots, but it still seemed to drag on all day. I thought that this music video was never going to get done. Ugh... I'm so tired.

When I finally get inside my apartment, I collapse on the couch and I don't even have energy to take my jacket off.

As I close my eyes and lay my head back on the couch, the image of Godt sleeping instantly pops into my mind. I have been so good today and I tried not to think about him but being home and finally having time to relax has my mind instantly going to him. I still want to know why he is taking sleeping pills. Oh, that reminds me that I didn't have time to try and hunt through all the social media to see if I can find his accounts.