We all get scared.
Sad.
It's part of being human.
Being the disarray of imbalanced chemicals we are.
Being scared like kittens.
Sad and stale like old bread.
Some think of themselves as mind, soul, self.
Their thoughts are who they are.
They are more than neurons.
They are more than their cells.
Me, I am brought comfort in the fact I am nothing but brain. Nothing but signals sent to different points in my skull. Nothing but chemicals.
Every thought, every movement, every interaction.
They're all influencing my chemicals.
Fear.
A signal is relayed to the thalamus.
and then to the amygdala.
which releases neurotransmitters throughout.
Glutamate.
I'm terrified in the back of this car.
But it feels.
So.
Good.
It's just my chemicals.
Just my glutamate.
To get addicted to fear.
To sadness.
To get high on anxiety.
That's what it is.
To find comfort in the sadness chemicals.
I'm an acetylcholine addict.
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Lovebug
Mystery / ThrillerLovebug is compulsive. Lovebug is simple. Lovebug is mind numbingly bored. (I abandoned this story and don't care for it very much but I think it's still worth a read)
