Back then || KIMHANBIN

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When we all went to bed, my sister went to meet donghyuk, he called her while we were having lunch, so I wore my clothes.

I took my phone n ran to the elevator, I went down n walked to the park, I sat on the bench, he wasn't there yet, I yawned n played with my phone, I heard someone whispering, I turned around to see if anybody was around, "I'm hallucinating shit these days..." I mumbled n closed my phone, I let out a sigh n lay my head back on the bench, I closed my eyes n breathed heavily as I was thinking about Hanbin...what does Yunhyeong want to say about boyoung and Hanbin? I opened my eyes n saw Yunhyeong, I flinched, "wtf u scared me jerk" i said, he let a sweet smile, he sat beside me, "so what is it u wanted to talk about?" I said, "so about our kiss that-" I cut him off, "wait a second u fucking disgusting asshole" I said, "what now?" He said, "ugh don't mention that" I said, "ok fine whatever I did that day is not what I wanted to do...well u see" he sighed, "now I don't want to tell u but at the same time I do becuz I don't u to think I like u or anything but fuck." He said, "so Hanbin told me to do this" he mumbled, "excuse me what?" I said, "HANBIN fucking told me to kiss u so we all could get separate n he told me to lie to boyoung abou-" he stayed quiet as we heard the bushes at the back moving, "wtf?" I said, "ok fuck that Hanbin told me to tell boyoung so she could just go n to kiss-" his words were cut off when we heard someone's whisper behind the bush, "what the heck?" I said, we both got up n went to see what's up there, we both walked there n saw boyoung n Hanbin on there knees, boyoung was holding hanbin's mouth, my heart skipped a beat, "h-hi" said boyoung n looked at Yunhyeong, he pulled her from her elbow n she bumped into his chest, "ouch..." She whispered, "wtf were u doing?" Said Yunhyeong, "it's non of ur concern" said boyoung, "yes it is" said Yunhyeong, I looked at Hanbin who was looking at me, I flinched when I caught him looking back at me I immediately looked away n gulped, he got up n held my wrist, I pushed his hand away, "we were here to stalk u guys" said Hanbin, I looked at Hanbin who was still looking at me, I could see his happy eyes, I looked away n blushed, "stalk us?" Said yunhyeong, "we thought u guys r up to s-something..." Hesitated boyoung, Yunhyeong smiled, "but now u know that Hanbin was the on-" Hanbin cut him off, "don't lie u asshole I never told u to kiss her" he said, "ok but girls I did that becuz I had to do what I had to I'm fucking sorry" said Yunhyeong, boyoung walked away, "wait wtf boyoung!" Yelled Yunhyeong as she kept walking, "I guess I'll see u guys later or whenever" said Yunhyeong n ran to boyoung leave us 2 alone, I was about to go when he held my wrist, my tears start rolling down my cheeks, he pulled me to his arms, "why r ur tears so quick to come out?" He said, "even though I cried myself to bed every night for 3 years I don't know why those tears still come out...idk why I yet love u after u have done every thing...u stabbed my heart, I'm broken, I have burden the pain here" I said n put my hand on my chest, "u don't know Hanbin being in love is magical but when a person breaks the heart then that u call hell... The heart aches so bad I wish u could know how it feels but I'm glad u don't n I wish for u to be happy Hanbin, I have wished for u to be mine or atleast see u I guess it came true but I never knew it will be painful, I will never wish for u Hanbin...ur the worst thing happened to me, I'm not being able to sleep becuz of u" I said as I heard his heart beating, "Hanbin, I'm still into you" I told him while looking at him, he came closer to me, "I don't know if I'll be able to get u off my mind for a second or even my heart" I mumbled, he put his finger on my lips, "shush" he said n kissed my forehead, my heart started beating like crazy, "don't cry" he mumbled n cleaned my tears, he smiled slightly, I started crying even more looking at Hanbin, my hands n legs started trembling, he patted my head, he turned around to go, "h-hanbi-" I hesitated n choked, I couldn't speak, my heart felt weaker everytime I saw him, my heart felt like coming out, "for the times that I loved u I wish I never did, I wish I never had any heart, I wish I never fell in love, how many times do I have to ask God why did I fall in love, I pray to God to make me fall out of ur love which is nothing but pain" I said, "u already don't have a heart" he said n giggled, "ur heart is with me" he said, my heart started beating, "soon enough my heart can be u-" I ran to him n pressed his cheeks together so he couldn't speak, my heart couldn't stop thumping, I can't remember even once that my heart didn't beat for u, I looked at him while my heart was thumping, I looked at his eyes but then I looked away, I couldn't look at him, he grabbed both my hands which were on his cheeks n pulled it which made me bump into him, I flinched a bit, but he hugged me, he patted my head, "Hanbin-" he cut me off, "shush just shut up for once hyunah when I'm hugging u" he said, "why r u so nervous whenever I hug u or whenever I talk to u, whenever I look at u, what's wrong" he said n broke the hug, he looked at me, he grabbed my chin n made me look up at his face, I freaked out a bit n stepped backwards, he wrapped his arm around my waist n pulled me, "enough stop getting away from me hyunah" he said, I blushed so bad, I couldn't even breathe properly, I was so nervous, my hands got weak p, my legs couldn't stop trembling it was soon gonna give up, he smirked n let my waist go, he suddenly picked me up, "ur gonna fall" he said, "wh-what..." I mumbled, "I meant u were about to fall from shaking so much" he said n carried me to our hotel, he let me go in the elevator, I gulped, we got in, he was behind me, my heart was thumping really bad, I was so nervous, I clenched on my sweater, I felt his arms around my waist, he gave me a back hug, he pulled me closer, I was so nervous that I was gonna pass out, I felt his bulge, "shit..." I mumbled, he got closer n kissed my earlobe, "u can't seem to be playing the dominant role
, can u even do it?" He whispered, I opened my eyes wide, I hit his bulge, we arrived, I ran to the room n opened it, he came behind me, "hyunah-" before he could say anything I slammed the door, I was so nervous who tf told him about my wishes, it could be boyoung? "U forget ur scrunchie with me" he said behind the door, I heard his giggle, my heart started to melt, he was freaking adorable.