Dear Diary

Chapter 11 - Life sucks

Dear Diary,

The rest of the year absolutely FLIES past. We play a couple of Quidditch matches, we learn lots in classes, I mean, what could be more normal?

Except for your favourite headmaster dying.

Why, Dumbles, why?

But I knew it had to be done so I just went along with it.

Then it came, to about 2 nights before.

Where Snape just couldn't handle it anymore. "I can't kill him! I'm so loyal to him and it's too much!"

"Hey, no-one wants to kill their favourite headmaster, I wouldn't want to either," I hear Belle saying.

I'm standing outside the Potions room. I was going to ask Snape a question, but he's busy with Belle.

No, not that kind of busy. Ugh, how could you think that?!

"It's just, my loyalty to Voldemort is at stake here. I'm not loyal to him at all. I'm a spy, remember? Agh, I can't take it anymore!"

I hear him bang on the desk.

"Well, I'll leave you to think about it. Meanwhile, I need to go. Goodnight, father."

She opens the door and I go invisible. I tap her on the shoulder and she freaks out. I reveal myself. "Sydney? What are you doing? You shouldn't be spying on people!" she whisper - yells.

"Well, I was going to ask him a question but I think it can wait."

"I could ask him for you."

"No, I think it's best if I do it." I sigh. "Are... are you scared too? Do you want him to die?"

"Of course not. Here, come." She opens her arms and gives me a big hug. I cry into her shoulder.

"I dont want him to die! Why did it have to be him? Out of all the people. Thanks heaps, JK Rowling."

"Hey, all the good characters die because they're shot or hit with a spell. Thats why Harry dies of old age. If it makes you feel any better, go make out with Seamus or something. Go on, you know you want to!"

"See you later then."

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I didnt make out with Seamus, I just dreamt about it.

The next morning, I had a terrible feeling.

One more night for sleeping, knowing he's still alive. Next thing you know, hes dead.

All because of Snape.

I know, I know, I keep going back to that theory, but its true!

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That evening, it's a pretty sunset so I decide to go out to the Astronomy tower.

I look out to the Black Lake and remember Belle saying something about Godric Gryffindor. His anamaigus was a giant squid and apparently there is a giant squid on the bottom of the Black Lake.

I wonder what Dumbledore's anamaigus is?

I wonder if he even has one.

Creepy.

But not relevant.

I'm guessing Seamus knew where I was, because he came and found me looking out to the Lake.

He came up behind me and tried to scare me, but I don't think I told him that I am the master of not being scared, if someone tried to scare me.

It's one of my flaws.

He could tell something was up and asked me, "whats up? You always come to me when something' s happening."

He holds my waist and stands behind me with chin on my shoulder, looking out at the Lake too.

"Uh, well, it's just, someone's going to die soon. Tomorrow. I cant deal with it, knowing that its going to happen. I... I'm scared, Seamus."

"Would it make you feel better if you told me his name?"

"Well, if I told you who it is, you'd probably die of sadness. But if you want me to tell you..."

"Hey, you dont have to. I guess I'll have to find out. Come inside to the common room, it's nice and warm. Are you not cold out here?"

"A little bit. But i have way more important things to think about. Um... whats the time? Im starving."

"Its quarter past 5. C'mon, lets go. Ill sneak some food from the kitchen. I know the elves pretty well."

I cant believe how nice he is.

I head to the common room where Seamus heads to the kitchen. He comes back with a lot of leftover club sandwiches from lunch. All of the Rejects are in the common room as well.

"I didnt think Ravenclaws or Slytherins were allowed in here! Oh well, its not like we have anything to hide. So how has everyone's day been?"

I shouldnt have asked that question.

Everyone is scared, I can tell. They dont answer back. They just look at me strangely.

"Okay, i get it. He's gonna die. But thats life. All of us here today here are going to die. Its how life happens."

Belle is the next person to speak. She stands up and says "i agree. We are. We are all going to die at some point. So, there might some special people out there. Yes Hazel, you're special. But theyre all going to die! People ae going to die! Thats part of life! So, who's with me?"

We all say "yes!" and Hazel grabs a sandwich. I completely forgot about those. I suddenly feel my stomach roar and gratefully take one too.

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Boom!

I know you guys have been wanting that chapter for ages so here it is!

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~Sydney