bellamy blake imagines

you killed him • part two

summary: the end of the battle against the grounders at the drop ship and y/n is forced to leave bellamy
*where y/n and bellamy are dating

time frame: beginning of season 2

word count: 1068

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previously:
'do it.' clarke says weakly to someone behind me and before i know it i feel a pain in the back of my head and everything goes black.

y/n's pov

white. everything is white.

where am i? what happened?

memories flood my body as i try to remember what last happened to me.

the grounders. bellamy. clarke. black.

the war and fight replayed in my mind, followed by memories of bellamy and i, making my heart break at the realization that he's probably dead.

am i dead?

looking around me i don't recognize my area. it seems to be something similar to a hospital, i was in a bed hooked up to a machine and the walls, floor, bedding, well everything was white. there was a camera on top of the door and a painting to my right.

i'm not sure what i expected heaven to be like, but it definitely wasn't this.

sitting up, i feel soreness in my shoulder and pull my hospital gown down my shoulders slightly to reveal a scar, the size of an arrow.

memory of being shot returns to my mind and i get even more confused at why it was treated and almost healed.

that's when i realize that the cuts and bruises from my time on earth had also been treated, some healed.

i sling my body over the side of the bed and my feet touch the cold floor, making my body shiver.

i walk around and examine the room, getting caught up in the painting on the wall.

the sound of a door opening startles me and i instinctively tighten my fists, ready for a fight.

a young girl, similar age to myself, enters the room and introduces herself.

'hi, y/n. my name is mya.' she says softly and my fists only tighten. how does she know me? i remember bellamy telling me that one of my vulnerabilities was being too trusting, taking his advice i tell myself not to trust her.

'why do you know my name?' i ask cautiously as she slowly walks to the machine i was hooked onto, unplugging it from the wall.

'you're y/f/n, you've been here for a few days.' she explains, voice soft and soothing. she slowly walks closer to me, causing me to back away and ready myself for a fight. 'thank god you woke up, whoever knocked you out did a pretty good job.'

'how do you know me?' i ask, still very confused.

'after the battle with the outsiders, some of our people found you, and your friends.' she explains, continuing to walk closer to me. 'we brought you here and treated your wounds. we healed you.'

'friends?' i ask, now more curious than ever. 'who else is here?'

'well, jasper for starters.' she says chuckling softly 'he's been asking about you nonstop.'

'jasper?' i ask with hope in my voice, he survived. 'can i see him? where am i?'

'yes you can see him! and all your other friends!' she says with a smile, coming closer to me when she sees that my hands are no longer clenched in fists. 'you're in mount weather,      y/n. you made it.'

•

'jasper!' i yell when mya brought me to the dining hall, eyes landing on my best friend. i rush into his arms as he engulfs me in a tight hug.

'great to see you too y/n.' jasper says to me with a smile, i can tell he's happy.

'hey y/n!' monty says from behind jasper and my eyes light up at hearing his voice.

'monty!' i yell in excitement as i rush into his arms, almost knocking him off his feet at the amount of energy i used. 'i thought i'd never see you again.'

'me too.' he admits as he releases me from our hug.

'where's bellamy?' i ask, hopeful that they had saved him too.

jasper and monty's eyes can't meet mine and my heart breaks again- they didn't save him. he's dead.

'what about clarke?' i ask, anger filling my voice at the memory of her pulling me away from my boyfriend and pulling the lever that inevitably killed him.

'mya told me she's still in quarantine' jasper says as he puts an arm on my shoulder 'she'll be out by tonight.'

i grit my teeth at the thought of having to face her again, hands clenching at the thoughts of what i would do to her.

•

my eyes harden as my focus is taken away from the lady explaining our area to us when monty spots clarke and pushes through the crowd of people.

jasper follows and that's when i finally make eye contact with the blonde.

she pulls away from jasper and her eyes soften when she meets my gaze.

'y/n i-' she starts but i don't let her finish as i slap her across the face. hard.

'you killed him.' i say with venom laced through my words. 'bellamy's dead because of you!'

she sighs deeply, considering her next words carefully knowing that i was a bomb waiting to explode at any moment.

'y/n i'm sorry.' she said genuinely, defeat and regret in her eyes 'i made a decision. to close that drop ship door and save us. all of us. i'm sorry that it came at the cost of bellamy.'

'and finn.' i remind her, eyes glaring into her soul. 'you think you saved us, that you're the great hero, but what part of you died when you closed the door on the boy you loved? how does it feel to know you killed him. you're the reason he's dead.'

she gulped as tears brimmed in her eyes, jasper put a hand on my shoulder and tried pulling me away. i reluctantly agreed and started walking away with him.

'it hurts me more than you think.' clarke says as i turn away, making me turn to face her once more. 'i hate myself for it.'

'when you closed that door on the man i love, you killed me too.' i said through gritted teeth, tears running down my face and fists clenched
'you're dead to me.'