The Love Story

Never coming back

I love you Taylor. I love you so much. I can't live without you.

But I had to. I had to live without her. I had to move on. But nobody can even come close to her. Nobody has that freckle on her nose or the pimple on her cheek she always freaks out about. Nobody has the beautiful blue green eyes. Nobody has her amazing personality. Yeah I could get tons of girls but all I want and need is her.

It had been a long week. I laid in bed for the week. It made the days so much longer and more depressing. I didn't understand how laying in bed all day would help. All I could think about was her and how badly I treated her and how stupid I was.

"Austin, come eat breakfast, we have to leave for the airport by noon."

"I'll be down in a minute. I decided to wear my red Jordan's and a red pizza sweatshirt with my black pants."

I kept thinking about how we used to be best friends and I ruined that too. Everything changed when I told her how I felt. I wish I could go back and not have told her. We still would be on talking terms right now and I would be happy. Yes maybe if I didn't tell her then I wouldn't have been able to tell her ever but I didn't want to lose our friendship just because I wanted to be more than that.

I have to move on. She moved on with her life. It was time that I did too.

I walked downstairs with my suitcases. We got to the airport and a ton of Mahomies came up to me and started crying They all hugged me and said they were sorry about everything and that they would have killed themselves if I died.

At that moment, I realized that my Mahomies need me. I couldn't believe I put them through that. I loved them so much. They were what kept me going. I hadn't understood how much they cared until now. People were going crazy about this. When we got to Miami after the long flight, another crowd of Mahomies met me there. I signed a ton of shirts and books and papers and I told them all that I love them. I wish I could meet every single one of my fans and tell them how much they mean to me and how much I love them. Every one of them have been here for me and I get a ton of tweets every day from them.
I went back to the hotel and took a nap. "Did I make the right decision to come back to Miami, mom?"
"Yes, sweetie. Your dreams can come true here."
"Not without her mom. You wouldn't understand. She is my everything. I am everything that she is in her entirety. Without her, I'm nothing. People think my life is perfect but in reality, being famous ruins your life. It tears you apart piece by piece. This life is filled with pain, hate, and lies. Do you see any teenage celebrity that hasn't done drugs or smoked or had sex with 2 people in one night? Have you seen any of them pursue their childhood dreams? Look at Justin Bieber, he was an idol for so many, including me and he completely changed. Fame changes people. Money changes people."
"I know this, Austin. But you will change the world. You will be that person."
"Only with her. She helps me through everything. I need her comfort. I need her gentle hands and soft lips but most importantly, her passionate heart. She believes in me. Everyone always tells me it's going to be okay. She doesn't. She tells me that I'm going to go through shit and work my ass off and I still may not make it. But she tells me that I might and she makes me work for it. I don't want money to give me everything. I just want to have enough to support her and you. Some people need it a lot more than me."
"I'm proud of you, Austin. But, you aren't going to get her back. You lost her and you have to deal with that. You might have to deal with the pain for days, weeks, years but one day you will find someone that's meant to be with you. If she is that person then you and her will find a way to be together. But, you can't just go insane and ruin your career because of her. What are you going to do? Go back and talk to her. I guarantee you she wouldn't want to talk. At the moment, she is happily in a relationship with Alex. If you truly love her, let her be. If you love her, you would want her to be happy.
"I do."
"Good."