/ TW⚠ about insecurities and anxieties issue. Please don't read if you feel uncomfortable /
TAEHYUNG POV
"Hey, Tae. It's been a long time." A familiar female voice interrupt both of us.
I look up to that familiar voice and my heart stopped beating for a moment. For some reasons, it feels like the old scars in my heart start aching again. It's hurting.
Yeah, it's Park Chaeyoung. My first love.
Before I could react, another voice interrupt my daydreams.
"Hey, Chaeyoung. What bring you here?" Choa greeted her with a bright smile which makes her furrow her eyebrow. Guess she didn't expect that.
"I wasn't talking to you?" She argue rudely and I was about to stop the argue, but Choa was faster.
"I know. I'm just being polite and greeting our General Manager. Did you have a bad day?" Choa pull the same smile again and it's so obvious that she's taken back by Choa's sentence.
"I-I didn't. I was talking to him but you didn't let him talk!" Chaeyoung argued back.
"I didn't? You interrupted our conversation so I looked up to find you, of course I have to greet you, right? That's basic manners. He would talk to you if he wanted to. That has nothing to do with me." Choa shrugged and turn to me, signalling me to talk to Chaeyoung.
"H-Hi, Chaeyoung. Yeah, it's been a long time." I smile sheepishly, trying to act normal while rubbing my back hair.
I don't want to look at her so long but I have to. It's just rude to talk to someone without looking at them, right?
I didn't realize but when I turn back to Choa, she was eyeing me, suspiciously? Oh, obviously she's not happy right now.
Wait, is she jealous?
"Yeah, how are you doing? I missed talking with you." She flashed me a sweet smile and eyeing both of us nervously, "Can I join both of you?" She asked and I was about to refuse when Choa cutted me off.
"Don't worry. You two can continue. I have things to do." She stand up and I mirrored her action almost instantly.
"N-No! No! Actually both of us have stuffs to do!" I quickly held her wrist and turn to Chaeyoung who looked furious at the view. "I'm sorry. Maybe we can talk next time."
"B-But I-"
"See you." I pulled Choa's wrist to the exit and surprisingly she followed me along without any questions.
"H-Hey... you mad?" I asked nervously once both of us get in my car.
She took a quick glance at me and shake her head but still stay silent.
"Hey.." I reached for her hands and grasp it slowly to gained her attention. "Are you just jealous?"
YOUR POV
It's already 9PM and there's nothing comes from Yoongi. He promised that he will call me, but where is he? Should I just call him?
But I don't want to sound like a clingy girlfriend who can't give him space.
Maybe he's just busy working on his songs and forget about his promise?
It's not the first time he forgot about his promises with me because of his first love.
At least, I'm still thankful that his first love is music, not someone else.
But he never went gone for this long.
A call won't hurt, right?
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The endless tones drives me even more nervous and he didn't pick up the phone until the last tone.
"Yoongi! Where are you!" I slammed my phone to my bed and inhales deeply. "Don't you know how worried I was?" I continue mumbles when suddenly something hit my mind.
"Oh right! I could've just text Taehyung or the other members! Maybe they'll know what he's up to!"
Excitedly, I grab my phone again and about to text them when I accidentally press my instagram and it randomly show the post from explore tab.
I usually didn't interest in any of the news until I saw the logo of my company.
"Holysht! What thef-" I paused when I notice the man beside the logo is Yoongi and the headline,
SUGA from BTS is dating a non celebrity who work in NAYVER corp?
What the heck is going on?
I pulled another call to Yoongi but he didn't pick up. Damn, where is he when I need explanation from him? Is this why he left in a rush earlier? But why don't he tell me? I deserve to know, right?!
Why he put me out of this?
Why he underestimated me?
Why he take it all by himself?
Doesn't communication is the key in the relationship?
Why- why- why Yoongi didn't trust me?!
AUTHOR POV
Without you realize, your tears flowing to your cheeks due to your over thinking and the what ifs that filling your mind.
You were scared, you were worried, you feel useless, you feel like you're not enough.
You're not good enough for Yoongi to let you know about this.
It sound silly but for you, it's killing you softly.
It wasn't a big thing for some people but for you, your insecurities is what you fear the most.
The fear for being not good enough to people around you makes you feel more anxious.
Especially it comes to someone you love dearly, Yoongi.
You wanted to be enough for him.
You wanted him to trust you, even though you find it hard to trust him, or worst, yourself.
"Yoongi... yoongi... please..." you cried out, hoping it could reach him.
Could you?!
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"MISS CINDY!!!!"
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Call It What You Want 《MYG》✓
Fanfictiona Tsundere Min Yoongi, taking too long to realize that Cindy Park is everything he ever need. Giving all of her, she was trying her best to protect him and push him to the top. But there was cold and all eyes was on him, and her. Would they survive...
