Criminal Minds One-Shot book

Emily Prentiss: That's Not Fair! Part 1

Pairing: Emily Prentiss x Reader, Aaron Hotchner x Reader

Relationship: Romantic, Friendship/Parental Figure

Angst

POV: First Person- Reader

Gender: Female

Warning: Leads into smut in the second part. I know that some people don't like smut so I decided to divide the story into two parts. One as a normal one-shot, the other being the smut.

If you're going to hate on this, you might as well leave now >:(

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     It had been months since Emily had died and I still wasn't over it. She was the love of my life, even though I had never told her. I was too scared. I didn't even know if she liked women, let alone me. We had been best friends outside of work, we told each other everything and helped each other get over hard cases. She always made me smile and laugh. I could never take my eyes off of her.

     Morgan, Garcia, and I had been searching for Doyle, wanting revenge for Emily's death. We were able to locate Doyle's son, Declan, who was living with his caregiver, Louise Thatcher. Garcia was able to watch cameras set up on the street, having eyes on the house at all times.

Time Skip cause yea

     Suddenly, Garcia ran to me. "Come on. You have to see this," Garcia exclaimed. She pulled Derek and I into her lair and showed us the security footage of a man cutting off the camera. "We have to get down there right now," I said. We sent Reid and Rossi down to the house, where they found the bodies of two dead FBI agents and the body of Louise Thatcher. Declan was nowhere to be found. 

Another Time Skip cause I'm lazy :)

       "There's something I haven't told you guys," Hotch began. "Emily survived her surgery and was airlifted to another hospital until she recovered. She was given a new identity that was strictly need-to-know. I'm sorry that I've kept this from all of you."

     "Emily's alive?" Garcia asked, emotions causing her voice to crack. We all looked at the doorway, seeing Emily standing there with a solemn expression on her face. I immediately stood up and walked in front of her. I stood there and stared for what felt like five years but was just five seconds.

     "Hey (Y/N)," Emily said, sadness evident in her voice as she looked at me with sad eyes. Before I could even register what I was doing, I slapped her in the face. She yelped in pain, her eyes stinging with tears. 

     "What the hell was that for!" Emily yelled.

     "We buried you six feet under and now you're just...alive?! Do you really think I'm going to forgive you? I mourned the loss of my best friend, the woman I was in love with and all you have to say for it is 'Hey'? Seriously! This is not a hole that you can climb out of, not this time," I said, venom in my voice. I stormed out of the room, tears pricking at my eyes. Emily nearly turned and ran after me when Hotch grabbed Emily's shoulder.

     "Give her some time. It may take a while but she'll eventually get better," Hotch said, his face much softer than his usual stern expression.

      Emily turned back towards the team, only one thought in her head, 'I messed up big time.' 

*In 'Still a piece of garbage' sing-songy voice* Change in location 

     It had been about 20 minutes after Emily had returned and I was sat in the break room, head in my hands. 'I can't believe this! She seriously kept this from me! I thought we were best friends. We told everything to each other...Or at least I thought we did,' I solemnly thought. Fresh tears ran down my cheeks, creating new paths as they did. I didn't bother wiping them anymore, new ones would just replace them. I heard the door open slowly and the sound of someone heading towards me slowly. I don't bother looking up, thinking it was Garcia coming to comfort me. I was surprised at the voice I heard.

     "(Y/N)," Hotch spoke softly. "Are you okay?"

     "Do I look okay?" I speak, looking up at him with teary eyes. Hotch goes to sit across from me. I put my head back down.

     "I know that you feel betrayed and hurt right now. But, Emily left to protect us, even if we might have been the only people that could help her. She cares about us so much, and she cares about you even more. She never wanted to hurt you," Hotch said, choosing his words carefully.

     "Well, she did. She broke my trust, she can't just get that back because she feels that she was being noble."

     "I don't think she was trying to be noble. This was a hard decision for her. She knew what she was getting herself into. She didn't want you in harm's way."

     I looked up at Hotch again, tears running down my cheeks faster than before. "I just want to hate her so badly, but it's hard. But it's still easier to blame her, to tell her that she's an awful person. I need someone to blame," I sob.

     Hotch takes my hand and gives me his rare small smile. "I know (Y/N), I know." We sat in silence, Hotch holding my hand as I try to calm down. 

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     Eventually, Hotch escorts me out of the break room, a hand on my lower back, and towards his office, telling me to lie down and collect my thoughts instead of sitting in the stiff chair. I thank him as he turns off the light and leaves me to myself. I lay on the soft couch and sigh. I'm on the edge of sleep as I hear the door creak open. I hear a soft breath as the voice begins talking.

     "I know that you hate me, I get it. You need someone to be mad at and I'll be that person. But you need to let me talk first and then you can decide." 

     I stay silent. Emily takes this as me telling her to continue. "I left because I needed to protect you from Doyle. I knew that he would use you as a way to get to me. He's a manipulator and I'm one of his biggest enemies. It was one of the hardest decisions I have ever made but I wouldn't change it." At this, I perk up a little. "I know that this hurt you. You had to mourn the loss of your closest friend. And I had to mourn the loss of the woman I loved."

     I completely sit up now. "I know. I know why you did it. But it still hurts. I went to your funeral. I placed a rose on your casket and told the world about our relationship, about how close we were. I lost the only person I trusted. The only person that put a genuine smile on my face. The only person that I could ugly laugh in front of," I joked. "I didn't just lose you, Emily. I lost myself. You took a piece of me with every glance. With every joke and laugh. Over time, you took all of me, and I barely noticed. I need to rebuild myself before I can forgive you. You just need to give me back the pieces you took first."

     Emily looked down, guilt evident in the way she stood. I stood up from the couch and put my finger under her chin, making her look up at me. I looked her in the eye as her gaze went down to my lips and back up. Her eyes held a pleading look as I nodded. She slowly inched closer to me until she eventually collided her soft lips onto my chapped ones. Tears slowly mixed into our kiss as she licked my lower lip. I opened my mouth allowing her to snake her tongue in and explore. I attempted to battle her tongue but she eventually ended up winning. We pulled away, panting. I looked down, avoiding her gaze. "I knew you were the one since I first saw you, (Y/N). When I saw your smile, I knew that I liked you but when you started showing me your quirks and awkwardness, when I saw the real you, I knew that I was in love with you." I sniffled as more tears rolled down my cheeks. I looked up, seeing the tears on Emily's face. She stepped closer to me, wiping away the tears and pulling me into another open-mouthed kiss. I gladly accepted, snaking my arms around her waist as she held my face in her hands. 

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A/N: If you would like to read the rest of the story, which is a cringey smut (lol), go on to read the next chapter. Thanks for reading. I hope you enjoyed this angsty and emotional one-shot. This has been one of my longer one-shots so far, being over 1,400 words. I hope you have a wonderful day! :)