falling in love

Chapter 4 - see you on the other side xx

i saw how Jack jumped fast out of the pool and run to me. he looked at them

Brook: ey what's wrong?

Jack: come on we need to clean it

Brook jumped out of the pool and followed us in. i jumped up an sat on the kitchen counter and Jack took a wet towel and water and put it on the scars. i held in the screams because it hurted like hell. tears was streaming down my face as Jack cleaned the scars and Brook just watched.

Brook: Emilia why?

Jack: Brook if you tell someone about this then you are a dead man

me: Brook I'm sorry but life isn't good right now and i can't tell you why

Brook: but you told him?

no one said something

Brook: so you two are dating , aren't you?

me: no Brook just listen don't tell anyone about this. i don't want them to know okay

Brook: okay , I'm going to bed night guys

Jack: night Brook

me: night Brooky

he walked out from the kitchen and Jack continue to clean my scars. it was quiet. he stopped and walked to a box with bandage before he came to me again. He started to bandage my arms

Jack: what are you thinking of?

me: think if he tells Rye? you know that I'm dead then right

Jack: don't worry Emsy he wont tell anyone. Brook is very good at keeping secrets

when he was done he huged me

me: thanks Jacky

Jack: anything for you

i smiled

Jack: come on lets go upstairs and change.

i jumped down before we walked to his room. i took one of Jacks t-shirts before walking into the bathroom to change. when i was done i walked to his room to see him in bed already asleep. i smiled before laying down next to him. after a while i felt how he moved closer and put his arm around me.

Jack: night princess

me: night Jacky

3 months later

i ran downstairs and walked into the kitchen. the boys isn't home it's just me. i put on music in the speakers and started to make breakfast. after i had eaten i danced a bit before i heard how my phone started to buzzing. i turned the music of when i saw that i got a messege from Jack

Jacky❤️
everythings alright? xx

me
yes Jack I'm fine don't worry xx

Jacky❤️
sorry I'm just worried about you xx

me
I'm doing fine okay do your job and i will see you in 1 hour xx

Jacky❤️
okay xx love u xx

me
love u too x

i was about to lay the phone down when i got a message again from unknown

unknown
hey slut

me
who are you?

unknown
cut yourself more

unknown
you dont deserve to be alive

unknown
kill yourself

tears was streaming down my face at this part. i put my phone down and all the thoughts were spinning around in my head. maybe the person is right. what good have a made since i got born? nothing. i sat on the sofa and looked at the floor. after a while i search for a rope and hang it in the roof. i took the other part around my neck at the same time i stood on the chair. i looked at the ground and realised i didn't wrote a note. so i got down took a piece of paper and wrote this

hey i just wanna thank you all for everything. Rye you have been the best brother ever and i love you so much. I'm gonna miss all our conversations, when we laugh. thanks for always being there for me. Brooklyn , Andy, Sonny you have been the greatest friends ever and I'm gonna miss you so much. Jack. my one and only. the one that i always talked to. I'm so glad to have you as my best friend. and I'm sorry that I'm leaving you. I'm gonna miss our movie nights, late night conversations and our deep talks. you have no idea how much i love you. i have wanted you to tell something for a while. i know this could ruin our whole friendship but I'm dead when you're reading this so it doesn't matter. i like you. more than a friend and best friend. i didn't realised it until now. you have always been there for me and cared about me. i don't understand why i was still together with Jakob when i could have a good relationship with you. i don't know and will never know if you like me back but the thing I'm about to do you deserve to know. promise me to continue your life as before and don't think about me so much. spend time with the boys. take care of my family. be strong even if I'm not there with you. I'm proud of you Jack and i always will. thanks for everything guys and move on , be happy and live your life like before you met me. i love you all so much and this hurts so much. maybe you want to know why I'm doing this. i have been called slut, slag , been spitted on and bullied since the break up between me and Jakob. i cut myself and then Emma took my arm and draged her nails at the cuts. i don't know what i did to deserve this but it's better like that. i don't have to feel pain anymore. read my latest conversations on my phone and you will see what ended this. Ryan and Robbie. take care of mum, the twins and dad. tell them i love them. and that they don't have to feel sad because I'm in a better place now. much love from you sister, best friend, daughter and the one who got feelings for her best friend. i love you see you on the other side xx

i layed the note next to the chair before i got up and but it around my neck again. and then i jumped. i felt how my throat started to stop and i couldn't breathe but i knew it was soon over. then i felt how someone cut of the rope and i fell to the floor. i started crying. i felt how someone held me hard.

Jack: what were you thinking

i just cried

Jack: i love you okay i love you

i didn't say anything i just cried and everything was a big disaster