Never Ending Love [COMPLETE/PUBLISHED]

Prologue

 Watching Willow and Elijah jump into parenthood hurts. It hurts so much. I know that I should be happy for them, and I am, but why isn't that Mark and I? Why doesn't this world want to give us a child? There are so many voices in my head telling me that we should adopt. Give a child that doesn't have a home, but is it wrong of me to want my own biological child. I see little 5 and 6-year-olds every day and I'm jealous. I'm jealous that they get to go home to a family that isn't mine. Is it so much to ask?

"Shhh, I've got you," a voice says from behind me. Two strong arms pull close to them and I cry. I cry at the fact that I'm not a mother. I cry at the fact that I'm slowly falling apart. I cry at the fact that Mark and I will never have a family of our own. I cry at the fact that my marriage is falling apart. I cry.

When I arrived home from work, I didn't expect to find Murphy crying, but at the same time, I expected something to be off. I pull her close to me and let her cry. I know that no matter what I say she isn't going to calm down. There is nothing that I can say at this moment that would be able to fix the hole that's in our hearts. We never told anyone, but about a year ago, Murphy had a miscarriage at 10 weeks. We were doing everything right, but there was no heartbeat, so she miscarried. We continued trying for a baby because we took the miscarriage as it wasn't the time for us, but the hole that is left in our lives never healed. Our marriage hasn't been the same since.

I don't want to lose her, but it feels like I am because I can't help her. That's all I want to do. I glance down at her and I see that she has fallen asleep. I pick her up bridal style and I carry her to bed. I lay her down and cover her with her favorite blanket. My cell starts to ring and I walk into the kitchen and I pick up the call.

"Hello?"

Hey, Mark.

"Oh, hey, Daniel."

Everything okay?

"Could be better, but you called, so what's up?"

Uh, remember Emily? She was with me at the hospital when Aria was born.

"Um, I think so. Last I heard she broke up with you."

Yeah, she did, but we sorted it out and we are getting married.

"You guys haven't been dating that long."

When you know, you know.

"Did you tell Willow and Elijah?"

Yeah, they were ecstatic. Willow is already planning the wedding. It is hard to believe that she is okay with it.

"She has come a long way in the past couple of years."

I know. Expect announcements or invitations or whatever Willow is going to do.

"Okay, congrats to you and Emily."

Thanks, Mark, take care.

The call clicks and I place my phone down onto the counter. I hear movement from upstairs and I turn and see Murphy coming down the stairs.

"Hey baby girl," I say giving her a kiss on the top of her head. She wraps her arms around my waist and puts her head on my chest.

"I'm sorry," she whispers.

"Why are you sorry?" I ask looking down at her.

"Because I can't give you the family that you want," she says with her eyes tearing up.

"I don't care if we have a family or not, I just want you."

"I know, but still. Everyone has kids, but us. I'm so jealous."

"It will happen one day, I promise."

It is a promise I intend to keep.

I just hope it doesn't tear us apart.