Never Ending Love [COMPLETE/PUBLISHED]

Chapter 4: No, We are Better Together

A little bit ago...

I somehow had started sleeping at night after Dad had come and talked to me. It may not be full nights of sleep, but at least its something. I miss home. I miss being around Murphy. I miss snuggling her in bed and telling her that she is beautiful with her bed head. I just miss her. The one thing that I have learned from our time apart is that we don't need a baby to make us happy. Everything was fine with us before we decided that we wanted to have a child. Instead of talking about our pain and everything, we both took everything out on each other. No matter what we both said, we never recovered over the miscarriage a year ago. We were so happy. We finally got the chance to have our own child. A child that would be the perfect mix of the two of us, but then that dream was ripped from us over a missing heartbeat. We never got to hear their little heart pounding. We never got to know if our child was a boy or girl. I watch Murphy go from my wife who was ready to be a mother, to someone who couldn't even look me in the eye. She became almost a stranger, but at the same time, she wasn't. She was still my loving wife, and I love her no matter what, but she slowly became most distant and I didn't do anything about it. I wish I could go back and change things but that isn't how the world works. All I can do is love her forever because my love for her will never end.

I pull onto our street and I drive until I find our house. I pull into the driveway, and I look at the other car that is sitting in the driveway. Murphy? Why is her car here? I turn off the car and I walk up the front door. Her car is here but the front door is locked. I pull out my keys and I unlock it pushing the door open.

"Murphy," I say as she stands there.

"Mark," she says looking at me with wide eyes. I walk over to her and I engulf her in a hug. She wraps her arms around my chest. I breathe in her scent and I'm finally home. I pull her a close as I can get.

"Uh, Mark, I need to breathe," she whispers. I let go and it becomes awkward with us again.

"I think we should talk," I say breaking the silence. She nods her head and we both walk into the living room. We sit across from each other and we look at each other.

"So," we both say at the same time. We both chuckle.

"Murphy, when I asked you a month ago that we needed to be apart, I never wanted you to think that I was giving up. If anything I was trying to fix everything. I spent so much time feeling sorry for the way that acted to you and then I spent the rest of my time thinking. I kept thinking about what caused everything to change. It was our wanting of a baby. Before that everything was fine. I'm not saying that I don't want a baby, I'm saying I think we need to stop stressing and worrying about it. Us having a baby wouldn't define our relationship. We are married because we love each other more than anything else in this entire world. We need to focus on that." Murphy stares at for a second but then wipes her tears.

"Mark, I never thought that we would ever have to split up as we did, but I'm glad we did. It gave us the space that we needed and we both did a lot of thinking. And I think that you are right. We spent so much time and energy and it destroyed us. It chipped away at us until there was almost nothing left. I almost lost you, Mark. I almost lost myself. I want us to go back to the way we were years ago. I want us back."

Just hearing her say that she wants us back is enough to make my heart flutter again. We lost our spark and neither one of us knew. I feel complete again. Instinctively, I push myself onto my feet and practically jump her pulling her into a kiss.

She is mine and I am hers. We don't need a baby to define that.

When he pulls me into a kiss, I feel like millions of fireworks are exploding inside me at once. I feel whole. I feel at home.

You can figure out what happens afterward. We are both adults, I promise, even if one of us doesn't act like one.

A couple of days later...

We ended up spending the night at home after we had talked everything out. The day after we went to our parent's houses and we told them what happened, minus a few details, and then we got our stuff. We are finally back in the same household.

The thought of having a baby still looms in my head, but I don't want it to take over our lives again. Especially since it broke us apart. That was until I got a text from Willow.

Hey, I know that you and Mark just worked everything out, but I did this for you. You both deserve a family for than anyone and I think it is time for you to finally find out why it hasn't happened. She was recommended by Emily. She says that she is really good at her job. You have an appointment at 3 PM.

Mark and Murphy Stevens

Dr. Ariana Santos

Fertility Specialist

3 PM

I have been staring at this text since she sent it. That was yesterday. We have to be at this appointment in 2 hours. I haven't told Mark about it yet. I don't want to reopen any wounds that are still fresh. I hear the front door open and close and a shuffle of someone with grocery bags. You know that classic plastic bag sound.

"Honey, I'm home!" Mark yells walking into the kitchen. He throws his keys on the counter and puts the bags on the ground. Then he leans over and gives me a peck on the lips. He starts to put away the groceries and I zone out twisting my wedding band around on my finger.

"Are you okay?" He asks snapping me back.

"Yeah, I'm fine," I reply starting to help out away the food.

"You were twisting your wedding band, you only do that when you are nervous," he says putting his hands on my arms. Just tell him, Murphy. You can do that.

"Willow booked us an appointment with a fertility specialist," I blurt.

"Oh, I knew about that already." What. The. Hell.

"Wait, you knew?" I ask.

"Elijah told me. That is why I went early today to the store." I slap his arm.

"You made me freak out over nothing."

"I guess?" He asks.

"Are you not nervous?"

"We can finally find out some answers, so I guess a little bit."

"I'm scared." He wraps his arms around me and pulls me into a hug.

"I got you I promise no matter what I will love you. My love for you is never ending."

My love from him is never ending. And nothing will ever break that.