Love Stained Red (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Chapter 3

Present Day

"NYX?!"

Someone called my name distracting me from what I was about to do. I came to the realization of what I was about to do. I slowly climbed back down onto the balcony. I slid down the wall, pulling my knees to my chest and hiding my face in my arms. I couldnt stop myself from crying.

"Every time something happens I always go back to this... is this all I'm good for?" I cried outloud. I felt Chuuya wrap his arm around me. "Nyx..." I pushed away from him and stood up.

I rushed back into my room and put on a pair jeans and a long sleeved shirt. I grabbed my purse and threw it over my shoulder. "Where are you going?" Chuuya asked. I didn't respond.

"Nyx!" He shouted my name. Right as I put my hand on the door handle. "What?!" I turned around, placing my hand on my hip. "Where the hell do you think you're going at this hour?" He said walking over to me, slipping on his shirt. His bare feet making a sound on the black marble floor as he walked.

"Just leave me be, I'll be back." I said and opened the door. "Nyx it's 2 in the morning. You shouldn't be going out." He said and closed the door infront of me. Leaning against it so I couldn't open it. "What are you now? My dad?" I said and walked back to the middle of the room. "Nyx. It's the middle of the night, I'm not letting you go anywhere." Chuuya said and I just rolled my eyes.

"You're my boyfriend! Not my fucking parents! You can't control me like this!" I said and started walking back to the door. This time Chuuya wasn't in the way so I opened it and left.

"God damn it!" I could hear Chuuya yell as I walked away from the door.

I went outside and walked around the City. I just needed to clear my mind. That's all it was. While I was trying to clean my mind it seems I had just zoned out and let my feet carry me to where ever.

When I finally snapped outta it and realized where I was. The cafe I saw Dazai in. I sat down at the bench outside and looked around. There were few people, some of which stared as they passed me. A cool breeze came in and outta habit I wrapped my arms around myself and shivered.

Finally after awhile I got up and started heading back to my apartment. I knew I was going to get into another fight with Chuuya cause I actually had left. But just before I went home I found myself infront of a building. It wasn't too high but the fall would kill you.

I shook my head and started walking away when I bumped into someone. I fell to the ground but quickly looked up. "Sorry I didn't-" I stopped.

The man smiled down at me before crouching to my height. I backed away an inch but he grabbed my wrist before I could go to far. "Hello my little goddess." Dazai smirked at me. I felt my heart rate increase and my head started to spin.

"Let's catch up." Dazai days and pulls me up and walks into the alley by the building. I follow behind him. When my eyes adjusted to the darker light I noticed he was leaning against the wall. I stood in front of him and leaned against the other wall.

"How have you been?" His voice sounded sweet yet sour. Those four simple words wrapped around me and squeezed like a snake would his pray. "How am I? How am I Dazai? I don't know, maybe... fucked up? Destroyed, heartbroken. Depressed. All that shit. You left me alone! What do you think was gonna happen?! I was just going to be okay with it?" I yelled at him.

The only thing he did was close his eyes and nod. "Look, My little goddess, I didn't have a choice. I had to go." He started but I held a hand up to stop him.

(Italics is Dazai, normal is Nyx)

"You 'had' to go?! No you choose to go. I know all about it. What your friend wanted from you. I get you wanted to fulfil his wish but you left me Dazai. It was supposed to be me and you."

"I know. I'm here now though, you can come with me, we can start over."

"It's too late Dazai. I have orders directly from Mori himself."

"My little goddess I-"

"Don't even call me that anymore, Dazai. Nothing you say will change this fate."

"What if it's something I do?"

Startled by these words I tried to take a step back but realized I was already up against the wall. He took two steps towards me before he was so close I could feel his body heat.

Being 4'9 next to a 5'11 guy is quite intimidating.

Dazai grabbed my chin and made me look up at him, he slowly lowered himself down...

"Nyx?! Nyx where are you??" I heard a familiar voice call my name. I pushed away Dazai and ran out of the alley only to be met by Chuuya. He quickly wrapped his arms around me in a tight hug.

I looked over into the alley to see Dazai watching. Maybe I could hurt him just as badly as he hurt me. I pushed away from the hug and grabbed Chuuya's shirt to pull him down to kiss me.

Each second I could feel the kiss deepen. Finally we parted ways and I looked into the alley once more to see Dazai disappearing into the shadows. "What are you looking at?" Chuuya asked. I just shook my head. "Nothing, I thought I saw something."

He grabbed my hand and we walked back to my apartment together. Talking about our fight we had earlier. While walking though I couldn't keep my mind off of Dazai... I mean... was that so wrong?