Love Stained Red (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Chapter 16

I walked to the place Chuuya told me to meet him. It was dark with a dim street light to light our way.

I walked over to the dumpster and jumped on the lid and sat down. I looked around and waited for Chuuya to come.

"Wow, didn't think you'd show." I heard the assholes voice. I smiled an jumped down. "Well you don't randomly get a message from your ex everyday." I said and walked over to him.

We stood in front of eachother. His sent was intoxicating. Even though we were in an open space outside it felt like I was being suffocated in a small room.

Chuuya looked down at me. I started to feel dizzy. Why am I being like this?

Chuuya seemed to notice my discomfort and backed away from me.

(Chuuya italics, Nyx normal)

"Listen Nyx, what happened in the past... can I just be the past?"

"Chuuya you abused me. I can't just let that go."

"I've changed, I haven't layed a hand on Iris and-"

"But you're with her."

"Not anymore, she cheated on me and I kicked her out this morning"

"I can't go back to the Port Mafia, besides I'm happy with Dazai and with agency. I like it there."

"Loosing you was the worse mistake of my life. If I could go back and change everything I would."

"But you can't. Even then when we where together you knew... you knew I was in love with Dazai. You knew I missed him and yet you forced yourself onto me anyways."

"I know... I know. I shouldn't have done that. I should have let you have the proper healing time. I should have helped you though everything. I was only thinking of myself. But here I am, admitting everything to you. Showing you I want to be better, I want to change for you Nyx. Why can't you see that?"

"Too much has happened. Again I'm with Dazai now. I'll never be able to forget him."

"Nyx please."

"I'm sorry Chuuya."

With those words I started to walk off. I couldn't handle it anymore. The air was thick and heavy. His sent got stronger by the second. It was familiar one. Not the one he'd get when he was drunk and mad. It was the Chuuya I knew he could be.

Chuuya's POV
I was but I didn't move. I let her walk away. If I did anything, said anything she would see the old me and that's not who I am anymore. This time I had to let her walk away. When I was certain she was far enough away I turned to the dumpster and punched and kicked it.

Finally after my frustration was talken out on the dumpster I leaned against it and slowly slid down. "Damn it." I spoke to no one but myself.

At this moment I've decided if she was going to come back to me but on her own free will... sorta. I just needed to track down someone in order to make it happen.

Nyx's POV
About 2 hours later I went back home to Dazai. He was sitting on the porch waiting for me. Something seemed to be off about him though.

"Where were you?" He asked me, standing up from his spot. I walked right infront of him and looked up to meet his gaze. "I just went to meet an old friend, that's all." I told him. He just glared down at me. A look I didn't like.

"You were with Chuuya weren't you?" Dazai asked me. I looked down, he already knew the truth. "What were you guys doing?" He was upset. "We just talked." I told him the truth and looked back up at him. Dazai didn't seem to believe me. "Why would I do anything else with him?" I asked him, myself getting upset now.

"I don't know Nyx. Maybe cause he still likes you and has a hold on you?" Dazai said.

(Dazai italics, Nyx normal)

"I just went to go meet him to talk, that's all. Why won't you believe me? You can literally check my body, no bruises, red marks, scratches, nothing."

"Who said anything about him hurting you like that? Makes it seem like you actually do have something to hide."

"Oh my god, you're literally making no sense at all. Let's go inside, we can talk this through."

"Why can't we talk it though right here?"

"Because the neighbors are out still. They don't need to hear this."

"Or is it because you know you can get a hold of me better inside? Where I'll bend at tour every will?"

"Dazai you're being ridiculous! Listen to yourself! Where are you getting this idea that I cheat on you from?"

"Through out the night I've had multiple people messaging me. All different numbers, all sending me photos or messages about you and Chuuya."

"What were they saying."

Dazai pulled out his phone and scrolled though everything. "I see your girl and Chuuya on the side of a hotel together." Or this one "they are extremely close. Looks like they are about to kiss." Dazai read out the messages. Then he pulled up photos. One was me giving him a hug which didn't happen and the other was him pinning me up against the wall, again that didn't happen.

"There is photo proof Nyx!"

"Why the hell would I do that to YOU of all people. You know how long I've waited to be with you, Dazai? After you left me without a word in the middle of the night? I had to wake up by myself and hear the news from Mori. Do you know what that felt like?"

"Maybe this was your revenge for me doing that to you."

"How stupid are you! Chuuya literally has another girlfriend already. I don't even like the guy, I'm in love with you!"

"We need time apart Nyx. I can't do this right now. Until I find proof that you didn't do these things then I don't want to see you."

"Dazai don't do this to me, please."

"Goodbye Nyx."

Then with those words Dazai turned around and walked into the house. I had no right to go in there, it's his after all.

I felt the pain and sadness build up inside me. "Dazai!!!" I screamed at the tops of my lungs, I collapsed to the ground just like I did that night. The first night I long Dazai, it was a repeat of it but this time... he told me he was leaving.

I composed myself quickly and walked out of there. I went and bought a pen and paper and wrote a note to the Armed Detective Agency, well actually I wrote a letter to Kunikida. I explained to him what was going on. I told him I'd be around town but whatever happens happens. If I make a dumb choice than that's that.

I also told him I had a horrible gut feeling something was going to happen to me. Something that was going to be against my will but I wasn't going to be able to control it. Like something was going to be totally out of my hands, I just didn't know what yet.