My Poetry

Actress

I'm an actress pretending
Walking a path with no ending
Wondering if I made a mistake
When I showed you her face

You called her yours
While I'm stuck sobbing
Saying it's a joke but you were never a clown
They said it's ok and a part of me is
But the other is acting faking a smile

They say jealousy is pain
But I know neither
All I know is I'm withering away without you
Without feeling your heartbeat

I'm an actress pretending
Walking a path with no ending
Wondering if I made a mistake
When I showed you her face

The worst part is I get lost in my thoughts
Something I used to cherish has poisoned my mind
Thinking of never seeing your eyes again
Imagining the darkness without seeing your bright smile
Shivering at the thought of never again feeling the warmth of your hand
And crying thinking of never feeling your soft graze

I'm an actress pretending
Walking a path with no ending
Wondering if I made a mistake
When I showed you her face

The sad part is, my dreams are not yet satisfied
You never fell asleep in my lap
We never had a do-nothing day
We never cuddled when it was cold outside
And I never got to comfort you when you cried

They tell me I'm used
But I hope your better
I pray that together we never surrender

I'm an actress pretending
Walking a path with no ending
Wondering if I made a mistake
When I mentioned her name