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The pain of unfaithful marriage

After me and my son finished our breakfast,i went to the guest room where my wife had taken a night,i tried to embrace her but she refused,as i looked her I noticed that she has already started loosing her weight,i felt guilty but it was already too late,i can't reverse the time....I forced myself despite knowing her feelings towards me had already gone and I could left after our last night conversation but all the battle we had won before, It wasn't necessary for me to leave without saying anything......
I look at her and I told her.." please Catherine I beg you, stop hurting your self, yes I'm the one to be blamed for our relationship fail but it doesn't mean well to see you hurting yourself....
Remember during our vows we had agreement before God and people,that we love cherish and take care during all situation,i will be living with you at any cost..I definitely understand how you are feeling but you need to be strong.....
Just remember how I found so difficult to choose between you and Helen but through your love and compassion.. you captured everything... I chose to live with you ...
It's true i have tighten and improved my behaviour and you know that.. but even after all those sacrifice, you are still get hard to forgive me and give me a new chance ... Even though I deserve this it's not wise to crap out, you are my strength in the time of good and bad..
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my love! no one could ever thought that this time would come to our lives and because it happened we need to forget our past behind and move on......
please give me a smile and create my day....enough my love wipe your tears and stop crying....
Catherine;why do I love you this much???, my dad tried to warned me before but I didn't ever listen to him...you blinded me with those good word,that even after hurting me,i still get a place for you in my heart.. but even after forgiven you ,I'm not sure if I will be able to love you back... I'm sorry Clement."

Clement:I know I'm not good enough to be your man but I can be your best friend,please have a heart to forgive me and bless my day... please allow me..i kissed her in the forehead and I told her that I would be late in night because I have some details to discuss with my mistress and my attorney and I went ahead but before I closed the door I heard her speaking and I went back... only to told me
Catherine:"Clement promise me you will come back for me and Alvez???"
Clement: ..I do cathy!you are my family I must come back home

My son was inside the car and I had to ensure that he have already tighten the belt...we moved a distance without any word but son could not bare that he started
son:"dad when I visited my grandmother house my grandpa's told me that you are a bad father and you hurts my mum, that why she doesn't even want go to work now days,.... also you don't love me like before,dad it's true you have another child???" Clement: son! I don't know where to start or to end,one day will be a big man like me and you will definitely understand everything and please don't make a mistake like your father,if you got married live with your vow never ever break them....do you remember the time I left here and went to malindi to work and I spent many days there
Son;"yeah dad"
Clement: it's because I was talking care of your brother...
Son:"what dad..?.u mean I have a brother in malindi
Clement;is true my son! and what your grandpa told you not all are the truth and I didn't want to reflect or implement anything,dont worry you will continue being my son so don't worry
Son:"dad I really admired your courage,you are my mentor and I will be with you no matter what happened"..
Clement: at least my son made me feel alive again and I will do all i can to make him achieve all his goal,when we entered the school gate he embrace me and told me
son:"dad I love you,please dad when I am out of school will you let me visit my younger brother.."
Clement...son!I don't want to promise you something i won't give you,one day you will have a time to meet him..
Son"okay dad good day,i will see you soon"
Clement: please behave well son and have good day too and I moved ...I went direct to the hotel where we agreed that we would meet with my attorney......I was afraid to say my willing to my mistress but my attorney give me a hope of everything that we will discuss today...