My baby // Brallon oneshots 👑 //

I hate that i love you Pt. 2

(I dunno I'm sorry XD Part 2 for I hate that I love you! Les go!)

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
I hate the way I lied to you.
I hate the way I told you we were fine.
I hate the way I'd come home late.
I hate that I made you believe I don't love you.
I don't know why I did that. It was idiotic.
I do love you, I was lying to her.
Yes, I lied to you but I didn't want to hurt you.
Pathetic excuse I know. I'm sorry.
I still do trust you with everything I have in me.

You did give me everything I wanted and more.
It was good enough for me.
I know you did everything while I did nothing.
NOTHING.
You did use your money on me and I'll pay you back, not like that would really help, but I will.
I'm very grateful you gave me a place to stay when no one else would.
You were the best boyfriend I could've asked for.

I wish I would've known about your hard times.
I don't want you to be upset, hurt..
I want you to be well and healthy..
You're a selfless person and you put my feelings above yours.
I didn't deserve you.
I surely don't deserve you now.

It was all good enough for me but I did want more and I won't try to deny it.
She gave me nothing while you gave me everything.
I gave you nothing while you gave me everything.

You always asked how I felt.
You always asked if I was okay.
You always asked if I was hurting.
I should've done the same to you.
I should've asked how you felt.
I should've asked if you were okay.
I should've asked if you were hurting.

I did have your heart and you had mine.
But I wanted more.
I love you way more than I ever loved her.
I don't know why I even got with her.
I know, you'll say it's just an excuse but it's true.
She did nothing for me Dallon, nothing.
No I didn't break her heart because I knew she didn't love me and she knew I didn't love her.

I would do anything to get rid of your pain and give it to myself.
I deserve pain.

I wanted to marry you, god I still do.
You probably don't have the ring anymore though..

I do love you the way you love me..
Please understand.
I did lie, I did cheat.
But you need to understand I am nothing without you.
I am a waste of space without you.
God, I care so much.

Your feelings mean the world to me.
Your feelings always mattered Dallon.. never once did they not matter.

I do want to be with you forever but I screwed that up didn't I?

I screwed everything up and I hate that I'm the reason you're upset.
Your feelings matter more than mine do at this moment.

I am selfish.

No Dallon I want what's best for you! That's why I lied...

I know I can never fix what I've done but I want you to know I feel terrible.
I feel way worse than you think.

God I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.

I know I'm a jerk, but I am nothing without you.
Dallon I can't live without you in my life.
Please I just need to at least hear your voice..
Please I'm begging you at this point.
I know you're upset and you have every right to be but I just need to see you, talk to you.

Im crying while writing this and I know I shouldn't be since I brought this upon myself..

You are perfect Dallon, way more perfect than anything I could ever dream of.

God I love you.
I love you so much.
I'm sorry.
I'm so freaking sorry.
I love you with everything I have in me and I should've never let you go.

But last of all..
I hate you for still loving me when I'm the one who broke your heart.
I don't deserve you.
But god, I love you..

-Brendon Urie

(Awww I feel so bad for both of them in this and like idk who to side with XD Hope you enjoyed!
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