Falling // callmecarson

7

I opened my eyes to be met with darkness. My alarm was blaring. I sighed and sat up in bed turning it off. I rubbed my face as the memories from last night recollected in my mind. I checked my phone and noticed a text from Carson. I sighed not feeling motivated to check it. I'll check it in a few minutes, just not now.

I continued with my morning routine and finally got back to my phone. I went ahead and opened the message.

"Good morning gamer girl, you down for hanging out tonight?"

Should I? I wasn't feeling very motivated to do anything. I contemplated turning down his offer and playing sick. Eventually, I decided just to hang out. I still appreciate him, I don't want to leave him hanging. Maybe I still have some hope, whatever that may be. I know it's going to be awkward, but he doesn't know that I know, so I'll keep playing it that way.

I sent a quick message back, "Sure!"

I went back and Ed asked me about Carson. I was figuring whether I should mention the situation. He was a dude, and I'm pretty sure he had maybe a similar situation.

"Hey, Ed..."

"What's up?" He asked while still mopping one of the aisles in front of me.

I slowly explained what happened on the stream with Carson. I watched him stop mopping and turn to look at me. "I don't know what to do, I agreed to hang out with him today and don't know how I should go about it." I also explained.

"Well, aren't you both basically dating at this point? That's really rude of him."

We are dating? I wasn't even sure if I could be the slightest bit upset since I really didn't know. It sort of happened, but not official. I was confused and pondered about it for the rest of my shift. My only break of the thought was the incident of a man tossing over an aisle, I was upset and given a break.

I still have a chance. He's not dating this other girl, maybe I could somehow win him over? That sounds kinda selfish, maybe just show that I'm the better option? That sounds narcissistic now. Anyways I'm gonna do my best. It was finally the end of my shift and headed to my apartment to change.

I let my hair free from its prison and put on some shorts and a plain grey t-shirt. I slipped on some shoes and put on some perfume. I checked myself in the mirror. I looked decent, maybe not the prettiest but definitely not slobbish. I headed over and was greeted by Carson.

"Guess what, I ordered us pizza again. Hope you don't mind." He said as he turned the corner of his kitchen with a pizza box and plates. I sat on the couch as Carson sat himself close by. I don't know why but I felt uneasy at the sudden closeness, despite having a talk with myself it felt odd. I quickly pushed away from the thoughts and asked about his day.

"I pretty much streamed some Gmod with my friends. How was yours?"

"We had a customer pull down a shelf of chips, other than that pretty uneventful." If considering the fact that I wasn't thinking about yesterday almost every second.

"What? Why?"

"Well, they pretty much threw a tantrum over the absence of Cheetos."

"A very good reason in my opinion, never mess with a man's chips."

I chuckled as I took a bite out of my pizza slice. I was in bliss, I had been too busy thinking to understand how hungry I was. I guess Carson noticed and commented on my reaction to the pizza.

"Are you in love with the pizza now?"

"I forgot to eat lunch," I admitted. I think too much if it wasn't apparent enough.

"You forgot to eat?"

"Yeah, I was busy picking up the fallen and guess I forgot to eat," I lied. The last thing I would want is mentioning yesterday. We weren't really official, then again I didn't know what was between us. Was I a love interest? Or even worse someone he could use. I hate to admit it but life isn't one big fairy tale and this guy I was still unfamiliar with. It hasn't even been a week and we're already sorta cuddling. Was I taking things too fast?

"What would you like to watch?" He asked grabbing a remote.

"Maybe a horror movie?" I mentioned. I ate the last few bites of my pizza before putting my plate down. I grabbed the familiar blanket and threw it around us. My heart was beating fast as I cuddled against him. Feeling his warmth had made me forget my worries. It felt like something unknown was lifted off me. Maybe I was glad he didn't push me away and instead invited me to lay on his chest this time. He wrapped his arms around me and I curled up against him, I was happy.

We watched some random horror movie and it was pretty cheesy. I was only concerned about staying longer wrapped around his arms. I didn't want the moment to end. However, I was getting tired and had to work tomorrow.

"I gotta get going, I need to work tomorrow," I sighed as I sat up and stretched, "Minecraft tomorrow still? Or got plans?"

"My friends invited me to hang in their place, so maybe on Saturday?" He asked.

I smiled, "Of course." I was still happy that I could at least play Minecraft with him. Besides I'm figuring I'll be too tired to play. I got up and he followed. "Goodnight, gamer girl," He said but to my surprise, he had engulfed me with a hug. I hugged him back and walked back to my apartment. I was blushing the entire time replaying the small moment. Any moment with him meant a lot to me. I got ready for bed and couldn't help but be a smiling idiot as I laid down to sleep.

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Thank y'all for bearing with me through these slow updates. I've been busy with college essays and projects, so I promise that the next chapter will be a bit more lengthy to compensate (but the good kind of lengthy). I don't know when I'll be able to work on it but maybe I can release it in a few days rather than waiting a week.

Also, thank you all for the votes and comments, we hit 2k reads which I also wasn't expecting. It really means a lot to me, thank you for spending your time reading this book <3.