I used to think about how best to describe the way I was feeling in simple words - a lot . I don't know why I felt the need to do it but if I didn't I was pretty sure I'd -I'd .......I just don't know .
That particular Saturday, I was trying really hard to come up with some poetic words to save myself from all this unknown headache . Although , it was already fall , the heat was unbearable . I was slurping down a tub of chocolate ice-cream, when I realized something . I didn't need to look for pretty words to describe the way I was feeling . It was right there , in between my hands slowly melting into chocolate puddle .
What I felt at that time , for melody , wasn't love but it wasn't just a measly crush either . Somewhere in between the two . Like the ice-cream , sweet and fragrant , a heavenly texture that melts into nothingness , leaving behind the aftertaste of sugary vanilla and chocolate . But , hidden behind all these soft flavors, there's a little chemical stench . It's very subtle but it's there . Although , you won't notice it at first , It's pungent smell will hit you slowly . Very slowly , until your gums start to tingle and the taste buds are all chilled and sweet . And , thus , for a while , you will not be touching the ice-cream . You must recover from the sugar rush .
I can't tell if it was the heat or the saturdayness on that particular day , but I felt very cooped up . Like i was suffocating . I still haven't figured it out why that day was different , even though quite a few things happened . But something was going to happen , I could feel it in my bones .
I went out , walking aimlessly around the neighborhood , when I remembered I needed some new toiletries. So , I entered a local department store . As I was about to put a toothpaste on the basket , someone tapped me from behind . I turned around to see Melody , smiling brightly at me . We chatted until we got out the store . She offered me a chocolate , so we talked a bit more .
For a long while , we slurped at the chocolate , talking about anything that came into our mind . Melody smiled a lot , I presumed . She always had a big smile , and although it was really beautiful , it always felt a bit strained . Now that I think about it , I didn't care . But on that blindingly hot day , sitting face to face , I didn't like it . That feeling of suffocation came back , more intense than ever , making my breathing go abnormally stiff.
At first , she was busy chirping animatedly , but when I started to choke , she asked me if I was okay . There were concern in her eyes . I couldn't take it anymore . I picked my stuff and ran away from there . Not before looking at her face , which I really didn't want to because what I saw there broke me even more . She was looking at me , her face knowing and sad , a ghost of a smile still lingering around her lips .
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