Dreamy eyes 《 CHANBAEK 》

4

In his deep sea of thoughts an old faded memory appeared on his mind , it was an early morning . There were loud door knocks Baekhyun hadn't been able to pull himself off the bed that morning but the door knocks just kept getting louder

So he was forced to go and open the door

" HELLO ! " The girl screamed in excitement falling in the arms of Baekhyun . Pressing her cherry lips against his . Locking their eyes , hugging him tightly " Rough morning " She had joked . No , it wasn't that she hadn't noticed his thin arms getting thinner , his dehydrated lips , his pale eyes , his slim finger almost getting ripped by his own bones . No , she had once again noticed how tired he was this morning , how his feet bearly kept him up right

It was late July when they first met . She had noticed his lovely eyes , his slim finger . She thought that he was just a slim boy , she had fallen for his childish smile . Later that year they decided to connect their mutual feelings , she had decided to help the boy that had captured her heart . Help him not to lose any more weight . As he hadn't stopped losing , but as time passed by she realized there were more things Baekhyun needed help about . Like how he preferred to hide his smile she so much cherished with his hands

Well that day he had bought him a present . " Baekie " She said holding a pillow between her hands handing it to Baekhyun who was chewing a gum

" Oh for me ? Thank you so much " He said holding it as tightly as he could " This smells like you " He pointed smelling it

She decided to pass the sign that he had been spending the whole night throwing up " Just a gift to remember me " She said with a weak smile " Are you going somewhere ? " Every little excitement Baekhyun had it had been brutally burnt out " I .. need to go and help my brother on something "

That was the last conversation they had made for 3 months after that . The girl hadn't been picking up her phone neither her friends did . She didn't appear in any of the places she loved for over two months . Baekhyun had been starving for answers . But also bleeding from the thoughts of could she be there while I'm here ? Maybe she left because I wasn't enough .

After 3 months of failing to find her family , he decided to make himself enough for her . He started eating both in the morning and in the evening . Crying while trying not to think of the calories the extra yogurt he was eating had . Crying over the toilet trying not to press himself in throwing up and eventually sleeping  on the cold floor . But after some time he even managed to eat in the noon too , still crying but not in the bathroom , he even made a new friend after accidentally drinking his coffee as he had another tough night in the bathroom . And now , there was the boy giving him off weird vibes . Which he adored , they made him feel special . Like he had achieved his purpose in being enough to be loved by someone , but that boy kept disappearing

" Oh man what happened to you ? " Chen asked entering the store . There was Baekhyun laying on the desk , drolling

" Yeah I know , just a rough night " He said handing Baekhyun his coffee as he already knew the answer

" Thanks Chen " Baekhyun muttered

The silence broke a low tone " Hi .. " Baekhyun immediately rose up almost spilling the coffee " Chanyeol .. " He whispered .. it had been 3 weeks he thought " Wanna , like..hang out ? "
" Yeah .. " Baekhyun twisted his finger around the table awkwardly " Oh come on just say when and where of course he wants " Chen joked seeing how both of them acted like sixteen year olds confessing to each other " Come here tomorrow at 11 am and I'll get you to my house we have a pool " Chanyeol said always keeping his hands behind
" Sure " Baekhyun mumbled lowering his hands tyring to hide his smile that was hard to contain " O - okay . See you tommorow then " " Byee " " B-Bye "

" Oh damn you are so much into each other" Chen said when Chanyeol was gone
" I don't think so " Baekhyun still tried to hide the smile that had already lighten up his whole face

...

Chanyeol rode up his motorbike , he decided not to follow the usual root back. He didn't want to go the empty house again . He reached a far away mountain and got off the bike . He threw his helmet to the rocks screaming . His voice breaking . " I can't do this ! " He grabbed his hair " It's not right ! " He took a rock throwing it down creating a wave of dust " I just wanted to meet him .. I didn't want to fall for him .. " He took a blue helmet he had in the back of the motorcycle  " I'm sorry " He said holding it between his arms " I'm so sorry "