Dreamy eyes 《 CHANBAEK 》

8

He entered the house to be welcomed by a tight hug of his sister and a pair of familiar eyes piercing him with bandages in his hands " What happened ? " She asked holding Chanyeol in her arms like she had been doing for a life time " Thank you " Kyungsoo mumbled from behind looking at his hands " Yeah " Chanyeol huffed hugging his sister back
" Did you gave it to her ? " He asked drinking water to get his burning tongue cold
Kyungsoo looked at his shoes at the question , he let the tears run all over and now Lisa was starting to connect the dots . The rose Kyungsoo had been holding , it was for her ...
But why did her brother defend the boy ?

Kyungsoo placed his hands around the girl . Trying not to touch her in case she felt uncomfortable , the scent of her hair , he could smell it , even that close was enough for him " Bye " he muttered and left the twins alone

" Chanie " She said closing the door . Chanyeol was sitting on the chair of the kitchen table bitting his already bruised lip so hard it could bleed " What happened ? " Chanyeol stood up abruptly and he fidgety moved his head not knowing whether he should tell the girl or not " Chanyeol .. I'm your sister . You can speak to me " She ran to his direction in worry " I .. Lisa .. Define love "
" Chanyeol you are scaring me "
" Please " He said trying to feel his vivid heartbeat . His heavy breath that was hard to make , his crystalic tears running from his cheeks " Love . Well love , isn't something one can explain . It's a bazaar need to want to be with a person . To give him all of you . It's when you really understand your limits . When you see him , there is that heavy beat in your heart alongside with a rhythm change . Butterflies storm inside you . They make you do things you wouldn't " She sat beside him wrapping his back " What is it ?  " She murmured as she watched his trembling lips trying to speak " Lisa . Will you love me even if I'm a mistake ? " He asked stepping away from her " No . Because no person is a mistake "
" Even .. even gays ? " He said . He thought he had the courage to spit those words . He thought he had the courage to confort his lovely sister . He , now , is sure that he's a stupid coward . He ran through the stairway and locked himself into his room . Crying

" Chanie " Lisa mumbled knocking his door . But how could Chanyeol speak ? When he was rubbed inside a huge jacket , the only thing existing in his neck was a pain

" Is this about Kyungsoo ? Chanie you know he's not my type " She said trying to make the other forget the main point

" Lisa do you still love me ? " He asked opening the door

At the sight of her brother . Of her weak brother . His face was red , his eyes puffy and he had a runny nose . She broke in tears " Of course you stupid " She hit him

After some time passed . After Chanyeol was sure Lisa wasn't pretending he spoke of his fears " Mom will be so dissented . Dad .. dad will .. I don't know "
" Don't be silly . You are their child . Their love won't change " She said rubbing her hands through his hair like he was a little child

Lisa did believe her words . But after a month . Chanyeol had gained confidence , he was ready to announce of his preferences to his parents . The memory of that night dinner is as faded as a rotten wall . This memory is deleted by Chanyeol

Only a faded movement . He remembers his mother's face . He didn't know a person could turn that sad . Her eyes got shallow , their bright color switched to a pale grey . She didn't cry , she continued eating with her hands trembling as his dad outrageous threw Chanyeol's plate , yelling him that rubbish was the only thing animals like him deserved . He could remember a vicious pain . The kicks he had received that night , how his sister cried harder than him trying to stop their father . When his father had him spitting blood outside the house " I have no son. He died today " And shut the door . He could hear Lisa screaming trying to reach the door but her father pulled her and locked her in a room . No , their father , wasn't a violent person . He had never raised an arm to his kids . But he had a low temper . That night Lisa fell asleep on her desk trying to process everything . Their father had to take pills to sleep and their mother never spoke again

Chanyeol didn't want to stay there . He didn't want the feeling of disapproval he had received . He didn't want to give up . He didn't want to beg

He left walking in the night street like a drunk person

" Sehun ? " He said as he saw the person he never expected to see at 3 am outside a motel

" My friend " Sehun giggled , his breath smelled alcohol miles away

" What happened ? " Chanyeol asked taking the bottle away

What had happened was what had been happening every Friday night for at least a year

Sehun would buy a bouquet of flowers of every color . He would walk to the motel at 2 am , and slightly knock the door " Hey mom . It's your son . Sehun . I brought you flowers , they are of all colors because I don't know your favourite " He would say " I know you are inside every Friday you don't have a night shift . I just want you to let me in . If I just wanted to talk I would go to find you at your work . But I want to know if you want me in .. mom " After he got no answer " Mom " He would cry , sitting down in front of the door drinking everything he had bought because he knew he would end up like that

He recently had found out , that the person he always called as mom was his aunt . That his mother had left to leave her life .. It wasn't a shock to him . But he desperately wanted to find her , but she , as it appears didn't have the same thought

...

The next Saturday Baekhyun had a smile as bright as the new flowers Chen was delivering . So Chen didn't need to ask anything to realize that last Sunday went by smoothly and majestic . But Chen would notice that every Saturday Baekhyun's smile would fade more and more . Until a day he thought as a Dejavou . He walked inside the store , no-one greeted him . There was just a pale , extremely slim figure fallen asleep in the table . " Are you going to tell me what has been going on my friend ? "
The answer Baekhyun had been able to come up with was simple , yet harsh

" Same thing like last time " He said and then went to the bathroom . He sat in the corner , thinking that in one month it would be half a year since he last saw Chanyeol and a year since he last saw his girlfriend . No-one could cope with him , it was a miracle Chen was still talking to him , no , if he just wanted to keep a friend he shouldn't let Chen come close to him , he doesn't want to be abounded by him as well . So when Chen knocked the door and asked if Baekhyun needed anything , Baekhyun laughed and said that he ate something that provoked him stomach ache