Dreamy eyes 《 CHANBAEK 》

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24 July 2015

" Chanyeol " Lisa muttered knocking his bedroom's door " I don't want to talk to you Lisa " His words were sharp
" I want you .. to meet him " She said biting her lip in fear , waiting for an answer in a desperation tone coming from a deep fear she had been holding inside

" When will I meet your special someone ? " He said opening the door just as much as to poor out his eyes and look at her " After this trip , after I secure he gets help . He's a nice guy , he just has got a slight problem . He's been so nice , I'm practically obligated to help him . I just expected my brother would help me to get through this " Chanyeol had now left the room and joined Lisa sitting on the carpet in the hall " I get it Lisa . I do get it . But you are my sister . And I've seen you crying over him . You never told me why . You never told me who he is . I don't even know if he knows I even exist " He was suddenly choked by his sister's arms around his belly , hugging him tightly " When mom and dad spoke harsh words about you I cried . Not because you hurt me . Because I loved you and couldn't stand it . That's why I left with you Chanie "
" Two days after the trip I'm meeting that dude okay ? I'll give you the car if you agree with this "
" DEAL " She yelled hugging him more if that was even possible

Someone would think that this was a foolish promise . That Lisa wouldn't keep her promise . That Chanyeol was stupid for even offering such a deal and that he would never meet his sister's boyfriend . But it wasn't like that . It was like a thing between them . Promises no matter what should be brought to an end . And they would

That night Lisa had greeted her brother and was excited to do what she had been wanting for a very long time . It was a hard morning . She gave explanations to none of the men . Neither her brother nor her boyfriend . She would come back in a day and a half , she had said . To get something done . No details given . It would be a surprise she thought . The excitement running through her didn't let her realize how much sleepy she felt after 3 hours of driving silent " One more hour " she said " It won't take long " She said , yawning .

It wasn't much after her eyes unconsciously closed . That her head hit the steering wheel . Her movements weren't fast enough to catch it again . She slammed the brakes but it wasn't enough . The car slid from the road and followed a down fall inside the trees , the rain falling hard in the windows made her sight blurry . The car hit in a tree and turned upside down . It was rolling in the woods and Lisa inside it was screaming in pain . She was wearing no seatbelt . Her legs were in the backseat while her hands were stuck in the steering wheel . When the car finally stopped it was from a giant rock which had made the deposit run , starting a fire . Lisa couldn't leave the car . She was unconscious in the car when it all burnt to ashes including her .

After two days , when Chanyeol was sure she wasn't with their parents , he called the police to report her missing . He didn't sleep , he couldn't . He felt his guts tighten up , something inside him rot . After another span of two days the police found her and her car " It got out of the road on unsure reasons " they said . When Chanyeol learnt his sister was no longer in life he refused to believe it . He laughed at the cops and cockily said " This girl you found . Isn't my sister . Poor family of hers . Lisa is always careful in the street "

He was called to recognize the body . When he walked inside the hospital he came across his parents who he hadn't seen for 8 years now . He didn't talk to them . He passed them and went to see the photos of the burnt car . It did had her driving plates but also the steacker he had bought her . It was pink in the colour in a circular shape . It had yellow triangles inside it that were glowing in the car . That was when he knew

He fell on his knees , begging for all of it to be a lie . For air , as his lungs were empty . He felt a cramp in his throat , threatening to shallow him . He ran inside the room her crospe was laying middle burnt . He kissed her burnt forhead , stroked her head that was now without hair . He favoured her hands , her rotten hands . He tried to embrace her but her body just broke . Chanyeol's tears were the only thing alive in her .

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Refusing to let her go the doctors had to drag him out of the room and lock the door as he was hitting it , yelling her name . Trying to see her through the window's door

" Don't come at her funeral . It will make things more complicated " His mom said not even looking at her son who had been crying his soul out in front of the room where her daughter was laying on a metallic bed dead " This is on you ... She was driving to see a phychiatrist . After all she knew you were a basket case " His dad told him passing him a look of disappointment

Chanyeol can recall , faintly . The day before her funeral . He hadn't changed clothes , eaten or drink anything . He was sleeping on her bed wanting to smell her aura , make her absence less real . His dad's words always were in his mind . Running in circles . Dizzing him.

" Stop " He yelled inside the empty house
" I can't do this anymore " He cried out to himself

He grabbed her clothes from the drawers throwing them on the floor . He threw all her things from her desk . Ripping off everything he could find . Suddenly he came across with a razor blade . Was she cutting ? . He thought . If she were , then he had to do so as well . Maybe if they felt the same pain they could be together once more . He hurringly put out all of his clothes . Cold sweat running all over him . He pressed the blade across his arm sliding it down to his wrist . And for a moment he wished he wasn't so abnormal . That he was such an ordinary guy , maybe fall for a girl . Introduce her to his parents in a nice dinner .

But no

He wasn't . He had so many damn issues that his sister died for , no . She felt her insides burning until the whole place was on fire

Those were his thoughts as the blood escaped from his arms . It wasn't deep enough to kill him . It was deep enough to make him lay down screaming in this bloody pain

In-between the screams of his suffering , his eyes met a goldish notebook . It was like realization hit him . He ran downstairs to find something , perhaps a towel . To cover his wound . He covered it with two of them , he cried . Tears of regret . How could he lose control like that ? When the blood stopped running he went back upstairs to find the goldish notebook .

His hands were trembling . He didn't know whether it was from pain or fear . He opened the first pages and he immediately realized that this was his sister's diary . This was the notebook where she kept all her worries locked inside