Dreamy eyes 《 CHANBAEK 》

10 LAST CHAPTER

    ° Dear Diary

It's such a nice day . I met a boy , he has such a nice smile . His eyes seem dreamy . I think I have fallen for him . I'll ask him out .. maybe . I should probably tell Chanyeol about him .. I'll wait to make sure of my feelings first

    ° Dear Diary

Chanie got mad at me today . He's right I shouldn't have called mom to talk to him . But I just wanted us to be family again . Is that too much to ask ? I guess it's complicated
The boy I was talking about the other day ... Yes I'm sure that I love him . I want to help him , he's ... He's hurt .. like Chanie . He's so thin , why can't he see that ? I don't like seeing his dreamy eyes full of tears
So today I do what I shouldn't
I'll stop ... I promise

The last sentence confused even more the confused Chanyeol , so he rushed to the last one

    ° Dear Diary

I visited Baekhyun yesterday , he was so so so white . I'm sure last night he was vomiting and vomiting , his eyes were red and his breath stinky . I'm sure he cried too . His hands whenever I touched him were trembling , I know he didn't want me to be there . But I can't help him ... I can't help anyone ... I can't even help myself . Now I'm packing my things to meet a physiologist outside town . I won't tell my boys . And precisely I won't tell Chanyeol I'm going to meet our parents . I hope I can help both of them .... I can't see them falling apart in front of my eyes

" Who is Baekhyun ? " He asked himself over and over again for days , it was a black circle . He kept reading and reading that page non stop . Remembering his dad's words you killed her

It wasn't just him . It was the world that killed his sister . He needed to meet Baekhyun , he spent nights reading the diary , taking notes of his dead sister's daily life . It wasn't hard to understand that Baekhyun owned a flower shop

   ° Dear Diary

This morning I found Chanyeol crying in the bathroom , I couldn't understand why . I kept knocking the door all morning but he wouldn't let me in . " Please go " He said and in his low tone I kneeled . " What is it Chanie ? " I asked . " I .. I can't tell you " The humming sounds were enough for me to understand what was wrong . But when he came out hugging me , and I went inside the bathroom to see an empty bottle of lube . I couldn't ask him if he didn't ""work"" properly . After all , it was hard for him to find a match . Gay ... it just sometimes didn't work out

At the noon I went to Baekhyun's store , he was so happy today . Frankly he was eating half a donut . It really made me to forget my problems and be at ease , I was so happy to see him eating again . I hugged him tightly , he pushed me against the yellow wall of his shop and kissed me , I stole the nutella left from his lips , but then remembered of my brother " Could you give me a rose ? " I asked , and surprised he asked the reason , I explained him everything . I trust him . And he was willing to help . To meet a friend of his to Chanyeol . He says it's normal for something like this to happen if there is no human interaction for a long time . I called him dreamy eyes again ! It's so funny to see his reaction , and I love the way he touches me

" Flower shop , with a yellow wall . So that's where she always went " After some time he found the shop , he used to pass from it every day , it wasn't a secret that the boy was repeatably losing weight . So one day he went there to tell him about his sister . But seeing him like that , just didn't allow him

PRESENT DAY

It has been a year since Chanyeol first stepped in the store . He shouldn't go there ever again . How could he fall for the boy ? But he owned him some explanations

With a hoodie covering his head , he entered the store , the bell rang . Baekhyun was inside the storage " One moment " He said , and Chanyeol walked around the store waiting for him

" Dreamy eyes ? " He said , as Baekhyun wasn't appearing . Everything stopped at the phrase . Baekhyun rushed to see who the client was

" Is that .. ? " Chanyeol asked pointing at the huge machine Baekhyun was holding , that it was connected with his hand vein

" Serum ... " Baekhyun mumbled with his ablaze eyes , sharing the same power with Chanyeol's

" You got thinner "
" You got taller "
" It's not funny Baek "
" How do you know about the dreamy eyes ? "

Chanyeol , kept walking around the store . Knowing it would be the last time . Trying to absorb it's scent , it's memories , and the imagination his sister created to him through her diary

" Lisa ... it's hers " Chanyeol gave him the diary

Baekhyun , with his one hand , started turning the pages

" WHAT HAPPENED CHANYEOL ?! WHAT HAPPENED ? "

" I started falling for my dead sister's boyfriend "

" She's dead ....? "

" She died on her way to see a psychiatrist for your health and our parents for me "

" She died for us "

" And we have made no progress , we've just made things worse "

Baekhyun threw the stuff he was holding and grabbed Chanyeol by the arm .
They went to the bakery . He ordered two donuts and ate them all by himself

With full mouth and nutella dropping from his lips he said " Your sister wanted you to be happy "

Chanyeol dazed off , he didn't pay attention to what Baekhyun was saying . He was just thinking how he wanted to taste that nutella , but he shouldn't . His sister had done it . He shouldn't

He shouldn't

He shouldn't

He shouldn't

He shouldn't

He grabbed the boy by his neck and kissed him , he connected their lips , his tongue could taste the chocolatish savilla

" We shouldn't " Chanyeol mumbled
" No ... we shouldn't " Baekhyun let the donut fall and grabbed the other's hair , moving his hips on top of the other

" Can .. can we go and see her ? " Baekhyun asked

....

" Here she is " Chanyeol pointed at the grave , tears dropping

Baekhyun couldn't help but break down

" I love you . I love you so damn much . But you left me .. " He hit the gravestone " Everyday , every fucking day , I wished you would magically appear before me . You didn't ... I know I'm an egoist . I know what I'm doing now , I should have done it when you were still alive . But Lisa " He placed his one hand on his heart and the other on her memorial photo " I promise to take good care of myself . And please forgive me , but as it seems , you and your brother have a lot in common " He laughed " I love him , I know you understand that , don't hold grudges on us "

He got up , hugged the boy that was sobbing quietly , admired his eyes , and sat next to him " We graved enough . We will never forget you ... we have to move on now . I suppose that's what you would want too , right Chanyeol ? "

Chanyeol only nodded as he felt a huge burden on his throat , making him unable to talk

" It's time you move FOR you huh " Baekhyun placed his slender fingers around the boy's head . Chanyeol leaned his head on the other's forehead , their vibrant breaths matched and two small smiles were painted