Adopted

Chapter 23 ~tragedies~

ERINS POV
I woke up feeling wet, down there. I thought maybe I was going into labor, but I was only 6 months pregnant.
I lifted the duvet. I saw blood all over my sheets. my jaw dropped and I started crying.
My unborn child just, died.
I started sobbing. I can't scream because nothing comes out. i grab my phone and text Niall, even though he's in the room next door.

To: Nialler❤️
NIALL please come in here quick

I quickly hit sent. about A minute later NIALL burst through my door. he saw my face and turned worried.
"Babe?" He asked.

"T-the baby... I had a miscarriage" I sobbed.
NIALL ran over and lifted me. "We are going to the hospital" he stated and ran downstairs. he grabbed the keys and took us outside.
He put me in the back seat and hopped in the front. I saw my baby bump go down, nothing there anymore.

I cried silently. I didn't even give birth to this child, but I already loved it.

We pulled up to the hospital. Niall had no hesitation picking me up and carrying me inside.

"WE NEED A DOCTOR. A SHES HAD A MISS CARRIAGE PLEASE HELP"

the receptionists called doctors. they came running in with a bed thingy. they lay me on it and NIALL runs with us.

My visions is blurry and I'm crying but I don't fail to hear those three words that mean the most to me.
"I love you" Niall whispered.
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The doctors cleaned out the baby, and now my baby bump is gone. im 10 pounds more than I was before I got pregnant, so time to hit the gym.

I sat on my window seat staring out the window at the rain falling.
I heard a knock on my door.
"Come in" i said.

The door opened and I felt Louis arms around me. He held my tight as he sat down behind me and put me on his lap.
He kissed my cheek. "it's not your fault baby girl" he whispered in my ear.
I sighed and let a tear escape. "i know but I wish I could've prevented it" i looked down and started crying
"Shhh you can always try again, when the time is right" he said to me.
He held me like that for awhile as I felt myself drifting into sleepy land.
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"E, E wake up" I heard a voice. I groaned.
"Erin get up!" Lottie hissed.
"Go away. I wanna loathe in my self pity and sadness" I whined.
"No erin. you're getting up, getting dressed, making yourself look fabulous, and going out with me" she demanded. I stood up and flipped her off before walking into the bathroom.
"Ughhhh" I whined as I washed my face.
I brushed through my hair and left it normal.
I threw on an owl sweater and a pair of black skinny jeans.
I threw on some mascara, eyeliner and eos lip.
I put a few bracelets on my wrist and turned to face lottie. "done" I said smiling.
"Yay lets go!" she cheered and threw my uggs to me.
"Owwww" I laughed and pulled them on. She laughed too. I felt like a normal teenager again and it felt good. "Thanks lottie" I thanked her.
"For what?" She asked. "Helping me become myself again" I smiled at her. she smiled back "no problem babe"
We walked downstairs and headed to the door. "WE'RE GOING OUTTT" lottie shouted and pulled me out the door.
"I wanna go to the beach" I said. I know it's like November but I like to sit in the sand and take pictures.
"Okay"
We walked to the beach and I cheered. we took like 50 selfies and pictures of the sand.
It was so amazing.
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We got home around 7. "we're home!"

"Erin, I really need to talk to you" Niall popped out around the corner.

"Okay"

We walked upstairs into his room.

"Erin, you know I love you so so so much. you're my princess. but... I can't be with you anymore. Simon says Its not good for publicity for me to basically be dating my niece. im so sorry" he said.

My jaw dropped.

Its. been. almost. 2. years.

We. almost. had. a. child.

But that was almost. I didn't bother replying to him and I just ran out of his room and into mine.

I paced around my room crying.

What just happened. he would've stood up to Simon if he cared.

My phone dinged.

Twitter:
@NiallOfficial: Just broke up with Erin..

Great.

I started reading the replies. "Good Job NIALL!"

"What a hoe"

"Good. she was full of std's"

"God I still don't know why LOUIS adopted her"

"She's so ugly"

"Guys stop hating on her. she's too worthless for even that kind of attention"

"You all are so mean I love it"

"She's so fucking fat"

"I bet she's a prostitute"

"I wonder if she knows she's a whore"

I set my phone down INFRONT of me and brought my knees up to my chest

"No wonder her dad didn't want her"

"Haha this is why she was in an orphanage"

"Good job nialler"

I stood up and ran into my bathroom.

I grabbed my blades out of the drawer and locked the door. I sat down against the wall and rolled up my sleeve.

1- Worthless

2- ugly

3- fat

4- whore

5- mistake

6- being alive.

5- for each of the boys

10- just for being me. (AN:btw in all that is 37 cuts on her arm)

I threw the blade across the room and just cried while the blood poured out.

I wish I wasn't ME. I wish I was someone else.

I wrapped up my arm and went back into my room. I grabbed my phone and texted someone I hadn't in awhile.

Christian.
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I AM SO SORRY ITS SHORT BUT I FELT LIKE THIS BASICALLY IS A PERFECT ENDING