Adopted

Chapter 26 ~Suicides and Roses~

Nialls POV

Life isn't life anymore.

I don't know
Who I am

Where I am

Where I'm going

If I'm worth it.

I've lost the only thing I've ever loved. I've torn her heart out of her chest. I'm never going to get her back.

I pulled my knees to my chest and rested my chin on them.

"What will I do now?" I sighed.

I heard a knock at my door.

"Hey Ni, a girl is here to see you. Her name is Alexa" louis voice called through the door.

Who is this?

I got up and walked downstairs.

"Niall..." A girl, apparently alexa, said.

"Yea? Who are you?" I asked, panicky.

"Well, it seems, you're mum has gotten in a car accident" she informed me.

I froze in my spot.

"How?" My voice cracked.

"They said it wasn't an accident. They think it was a suicide. The roads were clear, and she was in a ditch. It looked like she drove straight into it" she said, handing me a note.

I took the note and read it over thoroughly.

It's true.

It was on purpose.

I sank down to my knees on the ground. I pulled my hair.

"Miss, you may want to cover your ears. He's about to scream" louis informed her.

And then I let it all out.

Not just a scream, but all of my feelings I've been feeling.

"WHY?! DEAR GOD WHY?!? WHY DID YOU MAKE MY MOM COMMIT SUICIDE? WHY DID YOU TEAR THE ONLY ONE I LOVED AWAY FROM ME?! WHY DID YOU TURN ME INTO A MONSTER! WHY GOD WHY!?" I cried out.

By now I was sure everyone thought I was crazy.

"Wh-y?" I sobbed.

Louis rubbed my back. "Lets go sit down, bub" he softly said and helped me up.

He took me to the couch and sat me down.

"Wh-y did she do it?" I choked out to Alexa.

"Unfortunately, I don't know. But your brother found her Will for us. she left you her savings account, and some bonds. That's so when you move out and buy your own place you have enough money for the first 5 years of loan and debt, and bills. I'm so sorry for your loss" she patted my shoulder and handed me the number to the bank to transfer the money into my account.

I took it and set on the coffee table. "I hate life"
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I got the money transferred. Apparently she left the house to Greg, and everything else in it is for us to decide who wants what.

GREG said I could have the furniture because he was bringing his own to moms house, so I decided to put the furniture I got into a storage unit.

I'm moving it into the storage unit today. Erin said she'd help me because the other boys are at the studio recording, and the others passed on helping.

It was November right now, and getting pretty cold. Lottie went to school, so she was gone right now.

"Erin are you ready?" I called from the living room.