my feelings

not good enough for him

It's funny how you can be friends with someone and one day they decide that you aren't worth the effort anymore. No more effort. No more random texts. No more teasing. They just treat you like  trash and throw you away. Like you meant nothing to them. At first it hurts and then you get this mindset that you don't need them and that they meant nothing to you. You will start telling your friends that you don't like him anymore and that you are done with him. Trust me this will work. But only for a moment. And once that moments gone it hurts more than the first. You'll see them with someone new. Choosing them over you. Even though you gave them your best and you still weren't good enough. Knowing you weren't good enough for someone hurts . You see that 'better person' and all the attention they are getting. You see them walking with them in the hallway and sitting with her friends. You see them together and hurts but you can't do anything or say anything because his new girl is your friend. Then you get mad. You are mad that you weren't good enough and that your friend did this to you when she knew how much you liked him. You want to shove his face into the ground and fuck you want him to feel what you felt. You want your friend to get dumped by him like the way you got dumped away. Like a fucking piece of trash.You will distract yourself with others boy, saying they are hotter and better but in reality you don't care if they are a thousand times better because you just want him.  You will feel all this anger, but you will hide it because that's the type of person you are, the girl who hides her feelings and never let them show, you let others be happy when you hurt like crazy.
-sa