Our Wildhearts (James McVey, The Vamps)

Nothing Happened!

It's two days after the guys left and I've done fuck all so today I'm heading over to Charlie's for a movie day. Now I'm not going to lie to you I've been doubting us, me and Charlie, it doesn't feel like it used to when I was James...I don't love Charlie that way! It's a bit late to be saying this I know but it's better late than never...right?

Anyways, I'm already showered and dressed ready to go over to Charlie's! Outfit of the day; high-waisted leggings that are slightly too short, a black and white striped crop top, my yellow and white patterned shirt, black hat, and my black brogue docs. Anyways I go down into the village, nip into a shop called Buckleys to buy a sandwich, tuna-mayo, and then go wait at the bus stop for the 184.

The bus arrives so I buy my ticket and go upstairs and sit on one of the front seats. Sat at the back of the bus are all the lads from my high school who think they're 'well hard' when in actual fact they just smoke a pack a day!

The bus finally arrives in Diggle so I get off and thank the driver before I walk the rest of the way to Charlie's. The walk is pleasant; there's a park and a stream parallel to the road.

Upon arriving at Charlie's he swings the door open and holds his arms out for me to go over and hug him. So I do and he carries me in before his gently kisses me on the lips. His kisses slowly move down my neck to my chest. I don't want this... I think so I take his head and pull him up so his eyes are looking into mine. I peck him on the lips before he rests his head on my shoulder.

"What film do you want to watch?" he asks me while I think of all the films that won't make me cry or scream.

"Oh my sweet syrup! Toy Story!" I answer when I see the disk box. "I love that film...childhood memories were made watching this!"

"Sure thing babe! You put the film on and I'll get us some snacks!" I receive his kiss on my cheek before he leaves the lounge and goes into the kitchen. Babe...I'm just kidding myself!

I put the film on and Charlie comes back in with two bowls; one with chips the other with nuts. He also has two cokes with ice and lemon!

"Such a good host!" I say as I take my coke and drink a sip before placing it down on the coffee table. From the coned of my eye I see that Charlie is about to put his arm around me so I grab a cushion and slide onto the floor.

"Okay...why are you sitting on the floor?" he asks me confused.

"Err...more like my childhood! I used to sit on the floor and colour while I watched it!" Smooth Delilah, real smooth.

"Whatever you say babe!"

The film starts and I keep my eyes fixated on the screen until Charlie pauses it after ten minutes.

"What did you do that for?" I ask him slightly annoyed because I was really getting into the film.

"De what's up?" he asks me and I know what he's talking about but I refuse to let on.

"What are you on about? I'm fine." That didn't come out as if hoped it would...

"That is exactly what I'm on about! You're acting really off with me." he looks so hurt and I want to make it better but I can't do that while we're in this fake relationship!

"Charlie I'm sorry I just didn't get much sleep last night..."

"Oh that's your excuse this time...De I want you to tell me the truth!" I look at him and he's nailed that puppy dog look! Charlie doesn't knows that I got stabbed that day and he knows I've seen the boys but he doesn't know that me and Connor kissed or that me and James are talking. "What happened the other night when you were with them?" Them! Who the fuck is he calling them with that bitterness in his voice? I stand up and glare at Charlie. I feel like my face is on fire as I clench my fists tightly by my side.

"The people you just called 'them' have names and if you're too lazy to say all their names at least call them The Vamps!"

"Okay...sorry. De I just need to know what happened to make you act like this?"

"Nothing. Nothing happened Charlie! And you know what I need? I need a boyfriend who isn't jealous of every guy I spend time with! I need a boyfriend who trusts me and doesn't feel the need to hold my hand all the time! Charlie I need a boyfriend who isn't you!"

Well that escalated quickly! I automatically regret saying that as I grab my shoes and storm out of the house leaving Charlie speechless in his lounge.

Not bothering to put my shoes on, even though it's pouring it down and there are puddles scattered about, I walk to the park I passed on my way here. When I get there I sit under on a bench and stare into the canal the runs along side the park. The rain falls down my cheeks as I sit and reflect on everything that's happened this past week...

First, I get stabbed by the man who ruined my busking life. Second, I become friends with James and tell him my past. Third, I get bullied by a crowd of extreme fangirls. Fourth, I kiss Connor, twice. Fifth, I have a go at Charlie and risk ending what we have.

I sit in silence listening to the rain splash as it hit the surface of the water before I hear the sound of footsteps on the sandy-gravel. I know who it is and he holds the umbrella over me but I refuse to look up at him because I know that he's hurt becauses of me! Quickly I shuffle along the bench and he sits next to me still holding the umberella over me. I snatch a glance at him and his eyes are red and puffy from crying. When I see his eyes flit over to me I go back to looking at the floor.

"De..." he says. "...I know something happened but it doesn't matter. I'm sorry that I'm overprotective I just don't want to lose you...didn't want to lose you" he trails off at the end but I still hear every word.

"What?" I ask confused at his correction. "What do you mean didn't?"

"De I can tell that this isn't working out. It's been great while it lasted and as clique as it sounds but I hope we can go back to being friends!"

I know I should be crying or something like trying to patch things up but I don't instead I hug him and he kind of accepts it but doesn't return it.

"What was that for?" he asks me.

"I'm sorry about everything Charlie I really am but the friendship we've had for so many years is the relationship I love sharing with you! Charlie you're like a brother to me and I'm so fucking sorry I lead you but I didn't want to hurt you..."

"I'm sorry too...that I made you think that you had to say yes!"

"So Charlie can we be Chips with Mayo again?"

"Of course Mayo! Now let's get out of this rain!" The two of us stand up and walk back to Charlie's under the umberella. When we get back we dry off and have a hot chocolate while we watch the rest of Toy Story.

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Sorry my chapters take a while but I'm a busy person! Anyways I hope y'all had a spooky Halloween; I know I did! Okay, so De and Charlie are no longer a couple but they're friends or so they say! Also if you don't get the "Can we be Chips with Mayo" it's their nicknames; Charlie's nickname is Chips and Delilah's is Mayo and people call them this because they used to spend all their time together!

Another reminder about my other fanfic which also has an info chapter about updating so I recommend that you at least read that, please?

Love you heaps, Fin! xx