Secret (1969)

chapter 11

I'm lying on bed, my head is on the pillow and I'm staring at the window. Lily's next to me and embraces me from the back. It's been a long time since we've laid but my eyes haven't closed. Everytime I tried to shut them, I imagined Zayn's mocking smile and his laugh rang as bell in my ears. It's horrible when you realize that you and your feelings have been mocked and your first kiss, that must have been especial, has been abducted. I always thought that would happen in front of altar, in white dress and the one would be my future husband, but when I was kissing Zayn I forgot about all that and I let him kiss me! I'm a fool, very fool!

This week-end has been very pointless, most of the time I've been in my room trying to read a book and to forget about those horrible moments, but I couldn't. Lily guessed I was not okay and asked me what was wrong, but I didn't tell her anything and eliminated her, at last she gave up.

On monday morning aunt wakes us up. I don't have a breakfast, just take an apple and go to school erlier than Lily, not waiting for her. I step in school with not that great mood and don't even greet to anyone, just head down the way to literature class. After entering the class, I sit on my place and start painting flowers, the only thing that I can draw. 

"Hey." Someone whispers in my ear and I wince by sudden. I look up and meet Niall's red face caused by bursting out in laughter. This condition of him makes me amused after this terrible two days. "How are you?" He takes his place next to me cheerfully.

"Fine, you?" 

"Okay" He says as the bell goes ring and the class fills with students and teacher comes in. 

I'm sitting quietly, still drawing somethings on the back of my black copybook. "Annabelle." Niall pokes me carefully. 

"What?" 

"Listen to her." He says with serious face. I come out from my thoughts and pay attention to teacher.

"...as for the subjects, I'll put the titles in this box and each one of you will choose it. What comes out, will be your presentation subject." Teacher says and shakes the box playfully in her hands. "You have two weeks."

"What's going on?" I turn to Niall. 

"We're making the project with our couples at the desk."

"So are we making together?"

"Yeah." He whispers and teacher reaches our desk with the box in her hands. Both of us start to take out the paper at the same time but then stop to let each other choose it. "Go ahead." Niall says with smile and allows me to choose the subject. When I take out the paper, teacher snatches it out from my hand and reads loudly "Annabelle and Niall will make a presentation about drugs." Then smiles and returns it to us. 

"Uhh" Niall sighes.

"How should we write it? It's a hard subject and I don't know anything besides that it harms the organism." 

"I know much more but it's not enough." 

"What should we do?"

"Let's find it in the scientific books."

"I've not got any of them."

"I have, but if we don't find anything either there, then look for it in the library." I nod at him.

Bell goes ring and we leave the class, Niall sees me off to the history class, which I have with Lily. When the class finishes, me and Lily go to canteen to have a lunch. After taking what we want to eat, we sit down. Lily is chatting with her friends and I am just sticking the fork senselessly into the meal. 

"May I?" Someone asks politely and everyone looks at him.

"Um.. Of course." Lily says to Niall. He smiles and sits next to me.