the last kiss

is this the end....

val's pov:

i left as she left. i was still numb
still trying to process what just happened?
did i really meet her?
is it true?
if yes!
then y its hurting so much?
y there is pain?
i took the cab & left for my place.
on my way to home i was quite

flashback:

juls and i are waiting in cafe for her fiance.
i was furious because i was angry because she seems happy ( that breaks my heart her doing things she only did for me and now its him. it really fucks me)
val :y isn't he here yet.
juls: some work came up
m sorry.
(i was so upset that i was not even looking at her)
he came and all of the sudden i wanted to runaway from there.
i was trembeling
he greeted me and i nooded.

mateo:hi!
juls:hi!
he was happy to see her

mateo to val
i have heard alot about you. I am glad we are finally meeting.
val: same here.

juliana & mateo

he came to juls and half hugged her
seeing him next to her. (i was sitting right next to them and it felt like somebody shot a bullet right through my heart) and i can't even move the pain is real.

he odered a few things as i just stayed stick to soda.( it was already hard to be there in same place with him)

i had my drink (tried to stay calm) my hands were still shaking.
we had a little conversation.
i was watching them. he was trying to hold juls hand but she was awkward about it (maybe because i was still there)
he seems to be a nice person.

i thought to myself😶

who r u val?
look at him he got everything.
he is rich and handsome.
he cares for her .
he loves her.

(maybe i dont deserve this girl
that's why god choose to give her to someone worthy.)

i can never give her every thing he is capable of.
a family.
all the money.
the respect for the relationship she deserves.

love is not the only thing a person need for living.

i was brought back to reality by the strange touch . it was juls she tried to take my hand but i did'nt give in

fuck! (i thought to myself)

she looked at me.and took my hand like she owns me.
(she does ) there is no lie in it.
i'll do anything for her. but i need to leave for now.
val: i think i should leave now.
juls looked at me with hurt in her eyes.
val: m getting late. m sorry
but we will meet next time.
mateo: juls is very found of you . m happy she got a friend like you.
val: me too.
it was nice meeting you.

i picked my bag and i was leaving
juls: wait let me drop u out
val: ok
she and i walked out of cafe
juls: r u ok?
val: yeah m fine.
juls: u r shaking.
val: yeah! m sorry i was just nervous.
i have to go.
juls: where r u going?
val: clg
juls: why? i thought u r getting late
val: yeah i just forgot something in locker.
juls: u r lying.
val: m not
and plz go don't make him wait inside.

juls looked at me like she knows m hurt and m not going home.
and yes! i lied
i cant go home m a mess.

she hugged me and went inside.
and i left to place near by to calm myself down.

cab stopped
it brought me back to reality. and i was home .

i was not in the mood to say anything or answer my mothers questions.

so i just went straight to bed.and laid there. wondering about the early thing.
i spent the whole day in bed. avoiding all the courses of the day.
it was hurting . and i was not over with it.

At noon i went to park to get some peace in me but nothing was working.

i dont know what was bothering me?
that i said no to her about seeing her tomorrow
that maybe today was the last time i saw her.
that i wasted whole time in crying
why m so week around her.
i didnt even tell her that i miss her
that i love her.
that no fucking person can take her place.
that i'll wait for her for the rest of my life.
because i dont see myself with any one else.

i cried. thinking that she looked happy and i just cried and made her feel bad.
and maybe ill never get to see her again.

Is This The end?

i dont think i can ever feel complete again without u love.