the last kiss

i'll be waiting

after coming back home val went to bed to take a nap.

she was not feeling herself.
so she felt better to keep herself to own only to not cause any drama with her rest of the family.

since her mother is always asking questions.

writters thought (I BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT )

val in her dream

juls and val are on their couch. juls big spooning val resting her face on crook of juls neck smiling, talking sharing small kisses. Watching a tv show val is so much grossed into the tv she didnt even notice that juls fell asleep.she turned around to ask juls about the dinner and see her beautifull baby sleeping. she is happy to see her girlfriend that mean the world to her.
she smiled to herself that what she did to have this amazing person in her life. she leaned forward and kissed vals temple and wispered
(i love you my angel)and fell asleep as well.

val and juls holding eachother
juls head resting on vals chest.

(an annoying sound of phone wakes valentina from dream)
to which she got up and hung it up who ever it was.
and she was so messed up that she started crying.
(this could only be a fucking dream)
u can never have her val.
she is married.
she is happy.

she walked out of bed  went upstairs to
light a cigarette.

she closed her eyes just to think about the time she had with juls.
their beautiful time together.
and wispered to herself.

(but m nothing wihout you my love).

i phoned Mia  .
to tell her about our meeting.
yeah she knows about us.
since she is the only person i can open myself to and i told her about everything.
And about how guilty i feel for being a wreck.
and she asked me to see her tomorrow again.and make sure juls that m doing fine.
(it will be selfish of me if i let her think m vulnerable without her. i know she will be worried after today. and i don't want that i want her happy. even if she is away i want her happy) because its all that means to me.

i dont know what m i suppose to do.
(its late i thought to myself)
almost 2 am in the morning and m still turning and tossing.
trying to settle down myself maybe just for a day because i want to be my bestself for morning thinking about the good old times.
i fell asleep.

IN MORNING:

val wakes up to a phone call .
its her sister eva telling her that she'll be home late.
she looks at time
and freaksout its 11 am.
fuck valentina.
how could you sleep so long?
she rushed to take a quick shower nd fresh n up herself.
she looked herself in miror but her face still look like a mess.
(like she cried alot).
she took a simple shirt and pair of jeans for herself.

i think i look fine. (thinks to herself)
and moves out.

she left in rush to not miss her last chance to see her girl.

she was very nervous on her 20 min drive to place.
as soon as she reaches there
she texted juls that if she wanna meet

val: hi
juls: hi
val: wanna meet??
juls: yeah ok
val: m outside
juls: buts its gonna take me a while.
val: no problem
ill be waiting at our spot.

val was feeling grumpy so she went out to grab a drink.
she looked around and started walking to take a view of the place nearby.

she saw a new cafe near by and went in.
ordered a ice tea and told them to be back to pick it up in 15 mins.
she went to a few more places near by thought of buying juls a gift.
then denied the thought.
she dont know if she'll even accept anything from her anymore.
it was hot out side so she decided to go back and pick her ice tea.
she pick up the tea and goes back to decided place.
she sat at the bench waiting for juls
its the place she and juls use to sit to spend time with each other.
Where they first meet.

she sat there thinking about the time they spent there.

just staying there holding eachother hands

val sat there thinking to herself :

why its gone?

why it was so easy for her to let it go?

why it hurts to even hear her name?
and why am i here knowing she is married for god sake.

val why are u even here?

writter's pov

they say its not in our hands.
its not our choice to who we fall for
people don't choose to be in love with eachother.
it happenes like anything.
but walking out is always a choice .
hurting other person is always a choice.
its our choice what we choose over love.
m a lover and i believe i can burn this world for the one i love but it has to be same on other side.
or u r just making fool out of urself.

its been almost 2 hours since val arrived at the place.
she finished her tea.
she kept scrolling her insta and played some videos on youtube to keep herself captivated.
a text pop on her screen.
juls: ill be out in 15 mins .
val read the text and suddenly she was out of breath.
she didnt kñew why she was scared.
there is nothing she'll mess up.
i mean come on what exactly can go wrong. Anymore.
she thought to herself.

calm down vale
she is your juls nobody else.

and finaly after the wait of 2 hours and 20 mins she was here.

its pretty much ok to love someone u can't have. some people are meant to not be in ur life but maybe in ur heart.