the last kiss

val's pov

with stinging heart.
i drifted little away trying to keep my tears.
(thought to herself)
m a fool for you.
but i should know m not worth it.
but i cant just keep my self away from trying.
i love her so damn much. that it hurts
each time i hear ur name it hurts.
but i promise u one thing juls nobody can love u like me.

juls: hey what happened ?
u got silent all of the sudden.
(while extending her arms)
juls: come here i want u closer
she took val in her embrace.
and all they can feel is pain.

(still holding eachother)

val: i dont think i can ever be with anyone who is not you juls.

juls: when u'll find someone who u'll love things will be better.

val: i dont see myself with anyone but u .
even thinking about anyone else disgust's me.

juls:mmm

m sorry.

val got back and looked at juls.

val: its not like i didnt tried juls.
but all i can think about is u.

it disgusts me that i let anyone touch me except u.

i can stay alone waiting for u whole my life. but its impossible that willingly i can be with someone else.

juls: u'll be better

i dont know what came over me and just blurred out.

val: can i kiss you?

juls looked at me with shock like she wasnt expecting this question from me.
well i wasn't either and i instantly regret saying it out loud.
like what the fuck r u even thinking val.
she is fucking married.

and all of the sudden the air around us was hot.
she looked at me.
juls: can u see anyone around?
i looked around and see we were all alone.
i noded no
and with that she closed her eyes and i pecked her lips.

juls: is that it?

i didnt understand her intention of asking this
i mean was that a favour?

val: did u let me do this bcs i asked for it?

juls: noooo

is it bcs u feel pitty for me?

she came forward and held my face with both of her hands and kissed me hard.
i was taken back by her this action but just in moment i realised what just happened.

i looked at her with all love may be she can see my heart breaking through my eyes.

nd this time we both gave in.
i kissed her soft lips  and moment i dreament about each day. that faith that she still loves me.

i was alive in that moment.

my hand on her waist feeling every ounce of love that i was missing in my life.
her hand on my face still kissing me hard.
i love the feeling that nothing changed the way we feel for eachother.
we were lost in eachother arms
when her phone buzzed.
it was her husbad.
i kept holding her.

juls: yeah m almost done.
just having lunch.
yeah ill be free in 15,20 mins.
mmm , okay.
and she hung it up.

juls: they r going to be here 15 mins
mom and dad

val: mmm
i dont want u to go.

juls: m sorry baby .

val: i love u juls. i cant live without u

juls: i know baby i love u too.

we kept holding eachother for a while.

nd kept talking about small things.

val:when m going to see you again?

juls: life is unexpected baby.

we didnt knew we'll see eachother again but see u r in my arms.

val: mmm

her phone buzzed again

and i almost cried.

juls: hmm i'll be out

i held her hard and i was trembling

juls: i have to go.

i sat down and she held my face.

juls: hey never forget that u r a strong person.
and see how much faith i have in you.
and what we had was beautiful.
but u have to live ur life.

she lean in and kissed me for one last time.
and kissed my forhead.
 
left me there burning in pain.

i watched her walking away from me
Like always