don't tell me what to do

the boyfriend of everyone's dreams (2)

don't scream. it's not what you think. he didnt respond, thank the lords. You're girl can't handle the tea that would go with that.

No but something similar happened. So let's start with the background. If you haven't read my part one of this, go do that cause that will explain the backstory of our relationship (hint: he wasn't from everyone's dreams).

So I was actually working on the assignment that I had due for class. At 9 pm, Sunday night, due on Monday. Call me a procrastinator, I won't be offended. But for this assignment, I needed the photo I had taken on my phone not too long ago. Being the idiot that I am, I got distracted and ended up scrolling through all of my photos. And I ended up at the bottom of my gallery. Woo spooky what's down there you might be wondering (which you're not but I'm gonna tell you anyways). It was photos from exactly one year ago. Cool, right?

Nah, because what was exactly one year ago? Homecoming! Still sound cool? You're a dumb ass. Well, I was still thinking this was cool. So that must make me the dumb ass.

But that was the night that I broke up with my boyfriend of my dreams (so much sarcasm). That's when it hit me. Like, the ghost in my room slapped me and yelled "STOOPID HOE". Yea, I remembered all right.

I got sad. I don't know why, my feelings for him had died a while ago. I think. I don't know it's hard to tell when you had dated someone for so long, then you just kinda cut them out. Sometimes I catch myself getting to used to talking about him, cause we were so routine in each others lives, you know?

Gross I'm getting sappy. You see what happens? Fuck emotions. They suck ass.

See, now I sound like a masculine dude. Someone probably named 'Brad' or 'Todd'. Maybe even an 'Eric'. Last time I checked I didn't have a pe-

Pepper. I didn't have a pepper. Because guys like peppers, right? And va-

Vandalism. Because when they get angry they break stuff?

Sorry I'm doing the while aversion thing. I'm sorry. Sorry, I'm apologizing too much. Whoops, sorry.

See, it's making me weird. What do I do? Not speak? Should I text him? Be like happy 1 year broken up? Haha that would be funny.

If only I hadn't deleted his phone number. Whoopsies.

So now I'm going through all of the photos that we took together before the break up. Horrible, I know. How stereotypical, I know. I knowwwwww. Can you feel my dread? I hope so, because maybe then it'll leave me.

See, I think this is why people don't want to get into relationships. Because they hear only the negatives. While we were dating, and to be honest, before then too, I had a blast, especially with him. He was literally my best friend and I think that's why it was so hard when we started going through stuff.

We rose really fast, we hadn't seen each other in years and when we got back together, we immediately became besties texting all day everyday. We started dating, but we fell as fast as we rose. Those months before and during our relationship we seriously amazing. We were best friends, and as much as I make him sound like the bad guy he wasnt that horrible. It was just when things went south, so did my attitude towards him.

I hope that makes sense, that was some pretty real stuff for a minute there. If you learn anything from my misfortune, take away that relationships arent bad. They only seem bad because people focus so heavily on the negatives. Sometimes it over shadows the months of happiness that came before it. So all my guys and gals, don't be scared to get into a relationship cause you might get your heart broken.

Take the chance because in the end it really is worth it. It's a learning experience and a half and most of the way through it, you would've a blast going through with it.

So, to that I say adios, have a beautiful night. I'll stay up for a while longer going through our old photos. I already got a few tissues prepared, hehe.