Breaking x Making Promises

Welcome Home?

Sleeping in an SUV wasn't the greatest time of Killua's life, but the moonroof certainly made it special. This far north, they could see the Milky Way splashed across the sky like a dense patch of glitter, and with the stars so clear in the sky, the three of them sat and waited for satellites to pass them by. Retz kept a tally on a post it note.

At around the seventh satellite, Zushi yawned from the backseat and said, "I'm gonna call it a night, dudes."

Retz twisted around, her cheek pressed to her pillow. "Goodnight, Zushi. I brought pancake mix for the morning."

"Oh fuck yeah," Zushi moaned, turning his face away from them. Killua snickered and went back to studying the stars.

After some time spent wide awake in an existential reflection, Killua decided that he really didn't care that much about stargazing. He wondered what it'd be like if Gon was there with him instead of Retz, and it was just the two of them bumming it in an SUV. We'd probably be fucking by now, he thought with a devious grin. He huffed a little, trying not to laugh, arms crossed over his chest.

"What are you thinking about," Retz whispered.

Killua turned and realized that she was watching him.

"The truth or something thoughtful and inspiring," he whispered back.

"The truth."

"If Gon and I went stargazing, we'd probably be screwing by now," he said.

Retz put a hand to her face and giggled. "Oh my God," she groaned. Behind them, Zushi was snickering. "It's so odd to me because Gon told me you were the first guy he ever dated."

"Fuck off, that's a lie," Killua laughed.

"I'm serious! He said he had his Tinder set to women."

Killua straightened immediately. Retz startled as he twisted around to look at Zushi, who was already staring at him. Zushi slapped a hand over his mouth and said, "Holy shit."

Killua had spent all of September and October the previous year pining after Gon Freecss like some sorority fangirl. It was to be expected that he kept track of all the girls Gon brought into Starbucks, and when it came time for him to buy a drink for a guy, Killua had jumped to the conclusion that Gon was bi, and that was that.

But Gon wasn't even dating Shalnark, his saving grace in Spanish class. He was just doing the guy a favor for pulling his weight through the semester.

"He and Shal fucked around, didn't they?" Killua said.

Zushi sat up and said, "I just assumed they did! I mean, one time I walked in on them making out."

"Oh, God, I don't want to hear that," Killua moaned, a hand over his face.

Retz sat up and said, "Wait, you didn't know that?"

"No!" Killua cried, voice cracking. "He just—he seemed experienced."

"If anything, Gon seems like the type to practice on a banana or something," Zushi said. Retz let out a startled, shrill laugh. "Well, who knows! Maybe he ordered a dildo or something—"

"I thought you were going to sleep, Zushi!" Killua snarled, grabbing his pillow to whip it at his friend. Zushi cowered and tugged his sleeping bag over his head. Killua slapped his pillow back down and harrumphed back onto it. "Jesus fuck... That entire time I thought I was the one with no experience. We even had the virginity talk!"

"What do you mean?" she asked.

"Like, 'Oh, it doesn't matter that I haven't done shit because virginity is a shitty patriarchal social construct,'" he said in a derpy voice that had Retz giggling.