MY eyes now red and my skin now pale as a sheet of paper, I walked outside the apartment with my keys in hand, the joy that was once filling me up now empty and deserted after knowing her sudden departure, not even being able to know the reason of why she did so or when is she coming back, if she ever comes back.
Sadness was eminent in my aura, the gloominess radiating through my facade as I walked lifelessly in the streets of Michigan alongside the crowd, trying to blend in with the joyous surroundings but to no avail.
How I wished to come and be her companion after years of holding myself in and pretending like I feel no sparks between the two of us, now comes nowhere near reality as I walked alone and clearly, if not obvious, heartbroken.
It was but a chance wasted for several years, thinking that I soon would attain her devotion like how I devoted my own happiness and revolved my life around her and to her only.
Sure, I was taken and I had a girlfriend that seems to be as beautiful as her, but she's nowhere near the beauty that was resting inside my own sapphire...
The sapphire that was once on the tip of my fingers now as far as the cosmos.
And everything falls back to the messy world of regrets and conflagrated sadness the more I think of how stupid I am to not grab the million-dollar opportunity.
But all of these was broken when I suddenly find myself deliberately pushed back from where I thought was the streets to the sideway by someone, as I felt my back ache after hitting the hard and cold cement.
"F-Fuck..." I winced, the pain excruciating from my back small and bearable, but still painful like the pain it was meant to inflict.
As I was about to raise my head and look at the fucker that supposedly push me, the anger and irritation filling me up after being struck in the back, everything melted down like an ice cube as I heard my offender speak.
"What the fuck are you doing?! Trying to go full-suicide now just because I haven't told you that I left for good?! The fuck is wrong with your screws Lexus?!"
The gem.
My gem, came back.
