It's complicated.||

playground (short)

There I am feeling terribly sorry for deceiving this cute douchebag that seemed so excited to play with me.
But my stomach just twisted, because even though I can't stop being honest, seeing into me being wrong is something I hate more than anything.
I'm an insufferable know-it-all, geez.
I breath deeply while I see that there's nobody on this playground.
I could just relax on this swing I crushed my ass on. Yea. Great idea.

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'Hey bitch.' It was Riley,
the green-haired mad girl I met in the library, now looking down at me with her psychotic look, forcing a slip of paper on me with just simply 'Hey bitch.' on there.

I remember my sass from that day in the library. Maybe I should apologi- no.
What I said was the truth.

"Hey fury." I replied with an amount of sass that was able to turn gulls into chickens.
She lifted her eyebrow and started giggling.
"You were right, you know? But I wasn't REALLY plotting murder.
I was just hurt and angry and I didn't intend to boil up bad feelings on your side, ya know? You seem pretty dope though."
She noticed I didn't understand much so she unwrapped some rusty sign language skills.
I laughed because it was so shitty that my brain hurt.

I started cackling and told Riley to stop.
„I'm getting my deaf aid back tomorrow, come and find me then"

I got a feeling of slight distress on this quiet place so I stood up and went home.
As I was on my holy goody path right now I texted Felix an excuse that randomly popped up in my wasted head.

‚Sorry, couldn't make it. I have a real shit type of diarrhea rn and didn't want to let your house smell like a freshly fertilized field. Have fun playing tho lol'

I really have no shame. I have no reputation that could get ruined because mine is already on the lowest level available. And I mean, hey, maybe that'll make him see what a shitty person I am (pun intended hehehe).

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I pick up a bubblegum of my bedroom floor and intend to throw it in my mouth but it lands in Neverland or in the endless widths between my massive breasts.
I'm not even kidding! My breasts are so big, I feel like I could beat a person to death with them!
Ok maybe I'm exaggerating a little, but actually, I just wish they had a normal size.

I managed to dig out the bubblegum and eat it.
Some of you might think "is she oUT of her mIND?! DiscUAsTANG!"
And my answer is:  YES. And you can't tell me that's not true because than you clearly have not seen me in action

There's this book shining at me from the little dresser next to me just waiting to be read.
'The Perks of Being a Wallflower' by Stephen Chbosky.
I reluctantly grab it, smell its amazing smell of adventures, and just can't resist but read it.
I didn't care about my homework, my future, my past, my made up stories and just read the book escaping into another reality until my eyes closed for a long nap.