DEAR ANGEL | Seungjin [On Hold]

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Seungmin folded the letter he had just written and kept it inside the box with all of the other letters he had written.

Then he opened the second drawer in his study table.

He grabbed the envelope kept on the very top above lots of useless books and took a deep breath before he opened the letter.

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Dear Sunshine,

Now that you are reading this letter,
it means that I am probably gone.

I am so sorry for what I did.
I just couldn't take it anymore.
I was just in too much pain.
I couldn't sleep at all at nights and
honestly, nothing made me happy
anymore, except for you of course.
You made me so happy Sunshine.

I know I am so selfish for doing
this but it was too much, too much
to handle for me.

I am so fucking sorry Minnie.
I am so weak and I couldn't hold on.
I just hated myself so much.
I hated everything about myself.
I hated being myself.
I just couldn't keep living.

I don't understand Sunshine,
I am such an idiot but you still
loved me.
I never understood why you loved
me so much and I never will but just
remember that I love you even more
if not as much as you love me.

You are so perfect Sunshine.
You deserve better than me.
You should get better than me so
now that I am not here anymore,
find someone who is worthy of you.
Find someone who will love you
more than anything.
Find someone who will stay.

I know it won't be that easy to move on
but please do it for me.
Please.

And I swear never ever blame yourself
for my death and don't feel sorry for
anything because it was me. I killed
myself. You don't have any fault in this.

I am sorry Sunshine.
Good bye ♡

~From your so called Angel
06/07/2019

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