Red Fear

Chapter Ten

Haden and Evan sat on the couch, Evan waiting for Haden to tell him a secret but she wasn't sure if she should tell him just yet or not. She is getting help for it, she is trying to stop, and maybe telling him will help her out. She took a deep breath, took his hand and pressed it under her sleeve and saw his eyes get big. A tear began to fall from her eye, she let it fall and spoke, "Evan I am a cutter. I've been cutting for a long time; I started just before I met you. I am seeing a counselor and I am in a youth group to help me. I have been wanting to tell you for a long time now, I have just been so afraid to tell you."

Evan still didn't say a word, but he pulled up her sleeve the rest of the way, handed her his camera and began kissing her cuts. At first she was a little confused, but she snapped the picture anyway. Evan continued to kiss her cuts, but stopped, looked at her and asked, "How many more do you have?"

She swallowed the lump in her throat and said, "All over."

Evan didn't say a word, he picked Haden up and walked up to her room, he placed her on the bed and asked, "Will you show me?"

She took off her pants, she pointed at her thighs, she took off her shirt, and she pointed at her arms and chest. Evan crawled onto the bed and towards her and began kissing her body; she tiled her head back and sighed. Was he really kissing her cuts/scars? She looked down at him to make sure she wasn't dreaming the whole thing and wouldn't you know it, he was kissing her cuts/scars. He kissed up the thighs, to her stomach, to her chest and to her arms; he back tracked to her lips and kissed her lips softly at first then more passionately. He pulled away from her and just began to stare at her body, he couldn't believe a good looking girl oike her would ever do this to herself and he wasn't going to let her continue to do it ever again.

"I am going to make sure that everything is alright, I want to make sure that you don't ever do this again, I don't want to see anymore cuts on your body, I just want to see the scars." He spoke into her hair.

She nodded her head in agreement and asked, "How do you plan on making sure I don't do it again?"

He looked into her eyes, "Every time we're together I am going to ask you to show me your body."

She was a little taken aback at what he just said, no one has ever taken that much intrest in her like this before, she didn't know what to think or what to say, the only things she knew to do, was to pull him in for a kiss and that's exactly what she did. They sat there on her bed kissing, she was starting to feel something that she hadn't ever felt before, she was feeling love, the kind of love she'd never felt before and she really loved it. She didn't want Evan to stop, but she pushed him off when she heard her parents pull up. They went to the window and saw that her mom was passed out drunk and she knew what that meant for her, she looked at Evan, "You have to go now."

He looked confused, "I am not leaving you Haden."

She pushed him out the window, "Please you have to go." Evan stopped protesting and climbed out the window, but he didn't leave.

Just as Haden got Evan to leave her father walked in, "Don't you look really pretty my dear."

She swallowed the lump in her throat again, "Please dad, I just want to go to bed."

He stopped her from lying in bed, "You are not sleeping until I get some actiion. Your mother is passed out and I need to get laid."

She let a tear escape, "Please no."

Her father didn't listen to her protesting, he threw her on the bed, she normally didn't fight back, but tonight she did, she kicked, and clawed at him and begged him to stop, but he didn't,he just held her down, ripped her clothes off and proceeded to rape his daughter. As he was raping her, Haden turned towards the window and saw that Evan was still there, she stared at him with sorrow in her eyes, begging for him to just leave and never come back. She didn't want him to see her like this, vunerable, gross, nasty and dirty, she just laid there and took the abuse from her father becasue what's the point in fighting anymore. The more she fought the more he abused her and that's never good. As Evan and Haden continued to look at each other, her father finished up and left the room saying, "You got to start moving around more, I can't keep doing everything."

She turned her face into her pillow and sobbed, she then felt a hand touch her body and heard a soothing voice to join the hand, "How can you let him do that to you?"

She sniffled and spoke into the pillow, "If I tell, it'll be worse than that. I just let him do whatever he wants to me."

Evan sighed, "I am going to the police tomorrow morning and I'd like if if you came with me to report this to them. The man needs to be put away for this."

Haden knewk she had to tell, so she said, "Okay."

"Are you going to be alright tonight?" Evan spoke, rubbing her back.

She sniffled, "Yeah."

He kissed her head and said, "I love you."

She smiled, turned to face him, kissed him and said, "I love you."

He smiled and left the room, Haden laid there in her bed thinking, she didn't want to go to the police and tell her the story no one would ever believe her. So she came up with an idea, she decided she was going to kill her parents and she was going to do it tonight.