Forever is only a matter of time. (Demi Lovato fanfic)

Trashed rooms and many tears.

Demi PoV

After Dallas and I talked we went back into the living room. I sat next to Dallas because honestly I missed her too. What she said really touched me and I'm so glad that she will support me. My sisters always were my rocks.

It wasn't long till my babygirl climbed on my lap and whispered in my ear:

"Mommy what about going to the cinema? Can we ask them?"

"Sure babygirl go ahead and ask them."

"Can you please ask mommy? Please."

"Ok baby."

I turned to my lovely family.

"Hey guys who wants to go to the cinema? I promised Laura to go see 'the fault in our stars'. Maybe you wanna come with us?"

"OMG yes.", Dallas screamed excited.

"I wanna come with you too", Maddie said.

"I'd like to join too.", my mom said.

"I gotta say no. I really don't care about that kind of stuff.", My dad said laughing. "What about you Naya?", I asked my girlfriend.

"No I don't really wanna come along. I'll prepare dinner for later."

"Ok."

Laura PoV

"I'll be in my room for a min. Brb.", I announced.

I stood up and went to my room where I collapsed on the bed. It's a hard day. Don't get me wrong. Demis family is amazing. They are so nice. But.. I don't feel like a part of them. I still have a problem with realising that Demi is my mother now. I don't feel like I belong with them. Look at them. Dallas, Demi and Maddie are made for each other. They fit together perfectly. Dianna and Eddie are so nice. They are a perfect family. Then look at me. They all are so beautiful and there's me fat and ugly and horrible. They're all so loving and talented and everything and I'm just me. Good at nothing. Worthless.

Before I knew it I was crying.

'Demi should have never adopted you.'
'I bet she secretly hates you.'
'Her family will never accept you as a part of them.'

Surprisingly the voices didn't make me sad. They made me angry Furious. I curled my hands to fists. I wanted to destroy something. I wanted to cut. So I did what I was best at. I went into the bathroom and got my razor out. I slashed the blade over my flesh and opened some deep and weird looking cuts. But it didn't hurt. And I wasn't scared. All I felt while doing it was anger. I was destroying my whole arm. But I didn't care. When I finished I put bandaids over my arm and threw a loose hoddie on. But that fury was still there. I wanted to destroy something. I took the lamp from my nightstand and threw it through the room. And it felt good. I started punching my wall and throwing things across my room till it really looked like trash. By the time Demi stormed in I had already punched a hole in my wall. I didn't even realise Demi came in until she started talking.

"Stop that Laura. Calm down"

But I didn't. I just continued trashing and punching. Demi came and tried to hold me.

"Calm down.", she said again. More strickt this time.

"No. Let go of me Demi.", I screamed at her. I punched her and it's pretty sure that some of the punches will leave some bad bruises. I knew I'd feel sorry for it later but I didn't care. I know I said that so many times but I really didn't care. About nothing.

It took Demi more than 10 minutes to calm me. Don't ask how she did it though. I looked around in my room finally realising the damage I caused. I stared crying.

"Sorry Demi. Don't hate me. Please don't hate me.", I sobbed.

"Don't worry baby. I could never hate you. But why did you do this?", she said referring to my completely trashed room. "I don't know. Sorry."

In that moment I realised my arms hurt and I remembered that I just relapsed. How could I have forgotten? I started crying again.

"I'm sorry Demi. I'm sorry mommy.", I kept repeating.

"Honey it's ok. Calm down.", she took me on her lap and I curled up to her. Then I fell asleep.

Demi PoV

Laura fell asleep on my lap. I carried her into Nayas and mine room bc she definitely can't sleep in hers. I'm gonna have to buy her all new stuff. Her room looks like a mess. But I can't be mad at her. I remember doing the same thing when I was young.. But I need to talk to Naya about it later. As I placed the covers over her body I noticed something red on her sweater. I pushed the sleeves up and saw bandaids all over her arm. I had to blink really fast so I wouldn't break down in tears. I had to talk to her about it later. But now I had to tell my fam that we couldn't go to the cinema today. I went into the living room.

"Hey guys. We can't go to the movies today. Laura isn't feeling good. She's upstairs asleep now. What do you wanna do instead?"

"Go shopping.", Maddie screamed.

"I'll take the time to catch up with an old friend then.", Dallas announced.

"And if no one minds I'm going to take my beautiful wife out.", my dad said smiling proud, making my mom blush. They were still so in love it was so cute.

"Okay then we'll go tomorrow."

"Maddie go to the car I just need to talk to your sister in private for a minute.", my mom said and everyone left, leaving me and her alone.

"She trashed her room didn't she?", mom asked out of nowhere.

"Yes she did mama..", I said sounding really young and scared again.

"She's just like you were isn't she? I can see it in her eyes. The pain.", mom went on, sighing.

"Yes mommy.. She is. But I'll try my best to fix her."

"I know you will. I see how much you love her. And I'll be here for you and her."

"Thanks mom."

New Chapter:) I was in America and SAW DEMI LIVE AT THE BARCLEYS CENTER AND OMG. And sorry that all the chapters are so sad n stuff. It's just easier to write with the way I am feeling atm.. It's easier to write this.. Because I know how it feels. I usually do with the most I am writing here.
But hope you like it. comment and vote please:*
Until next time