Forever is only a matter of time. (Demi Lovato fanfic)

Glee? Or more?

Demi PoV

"Honey? It's 10pm. Wanna go to bed?", I asked Laura. Her eyes were half closed and she tried not to fall asleep.

"Yes",she answered. "Ok let's go get changed. You can wear one of my shirts if you like and as I promised we'll get you some clothes tomorrow." I gave her one of my shirts and she got changed. She laid down on her bed and looked at me. "Demi? C..Can you stay here for a bit please?" "Sure sweety." I laid down next to her, pulling the covers over both of us. Did she really just call me Demi? well.. I told her she could call me whatever she wants.. "Demi?! Is everything ok? You look a little sad.", Laura said, a little bit worried.

"No honey. Everything is fine. I was just thinking.

"Thinking about what?"

"Nothing important. Sleep now."

"Okay.."

Laura turned to the side and I hugged her waist. Ten minutes later she was asleep. But I couldn't sleep. Laura called me Demi. 2 times. She said she wanted to call me Mom. Also I have to film for glee tomorrow. I don't want to. I want to stay home.

They want you to stay home too. Look. Even your daughter calls you Demi. She isn't your daughter. She doesn't even love you. Stop acting. you're too fat. glee is too good for you. 

"SHUT UP.", I told my demons.

Demi. We know you want to do it as much as we want you to. C'mon. Just a little cut. No one will notice.

But.. I have to stay strong for my lovatics..

Oh Demi. They won't notice. Come in. Just one cht. You'll feel better.

I knew they were right.. I didn't want to.. But.. I had to.. I needed this voices gone. I stood up.

"Where are you going demi?" Shit. I woke Laura up.

"Just going to the bathroom honey. I'll be back in a minute." At the end of the sentence my voice cracked because I was crying.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes I am I'll be back in a minute."

I hurried to the bathroom. I sat down and took my razor. I threw it to the ground, taking one blade out. I placed it on my arm.

" OH MY GOD DEMI WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!", Laura screamed running into the bathroom. She took the blade away from me.

"I..I am..Sorry.", I stuttered.

"Why did you want to hurt yourself Demi? Tell me. NOW."

"I.. It's just because.. You know that I'm acting on glee don't you? I'm not good enough for the show. I'm too fat. Everyone there is just so perfect and pretty. And then there's me.."I stared crying again. Laura hugged me tight.

"You are perfect, too, Demi. You are the most perfect woman on this fucking planet. You are good enough for thst. And Demi? Are you kidding me? You say you aren't pretty. You are the sexiest woman ever. So many Lovatics would go lesbian for you. Don't think you're fat. And now let's go to sleep." She took my hand, led me out of the bathroom and we laid down on the bed. Laura pulled the covers over us and curled up to mr. I was really tired from all this crying so I slept within seconds.

Laura PoV

Demi fell asleep right after we were in bed again. But I couldn't sleep. I couldn't stop thinking. Demi told me she is upset because of glee but that can't be everything. Maybe it's because of me. I'm a burden. Demi would be so much happier without me. Everyone would be happier without me. I began to cry. But in silence do Demi wouldn't wake up. She had enough trouble with herself today so she doesn't need the problems of a pathetic girl like me.

The voices in my head got louder every second. No one likes you. You should die. Demi would be happier right now if she left you in that orphanage. "Stop. Please." I tried to make these voices stop but they wouldn't shut up. I cried a little louder. Demi, still alseep, wrapped her arms around me tighter.

When I woke up in the morning Demi was gone. On the ground was a note saying: I'm filming for glee. I'll be back at 2. Stay strong, beautiful. xoxo Demi. GLEE. Only one word was enough to remind me of last night. Demi, trying to cut, telling me about glee. My thoughts came back all of sudden.

She wasn't just upset because of glee but because of you. You're a burden. She would be so much better and happier without you. I couldn't stand this any longer. I ran into the bathroom and I broke down. I took the box with my blades out. Luckily Demi didn't find it yet. I took one blade out. And hell yeah it was sharp. I took my trousers off and placed the blade on my tight. I wrote a word on my leg. WORTHLESS. And another one. FAT. On my leg Demi won't see it so I'm safe. After cleaning up the mess I made I went to Demis room to watch TV. It was only 12.30 so Demi wouldn't come home soon. I had 1 1/2 hours to calm down so she won't know what happened.

Sorry. I know it takes me forever to update. But oh well. That's me. Do you like the story so far?