Im Fine; JungkookxBts

-Chapter Nine: Skinny-

Jungkook POV:

Instead of joining them for breakfast I slipped passed the dining room entrance. I grabbed an apple from the kitchen and sat down on the couch.

It'll do me good, I thought. Not eating breakfast. I've seen myself in the mirror plenty of times to know that im not fit enough. I need to exercise more and eat less. I've become fat. Army will hate my looks and start leaving. My hyungs will be disappointed and mad at me.

A few minutes passed, already done with my apple, when my hyungs filed inside the living room ready to leave for our dance practice. Everyone saw me sitting on the couch but they just kept walking to the door.

"Come on Jungkook, lets go." Taehyung said while walking behind the others to the door.

The silent treatment. I guess that means they're still mad at me.  At least it's good to know that Taehyung isn't mad anymore.

After a few minutes, we arrived at the studio and entered the practice room. Everyone started setting up and getting into their positions. All of us were serious about our practices. Hoseok hyung started the music and we all got ready. We started dancing and everyone was in beat. Including me, surprisingly.  While we were dancing, I couldn't help but notice how fat I am.

Gosh, have I been looking like this throughout all the practices and videos we have been posting for army? I now understand what's the cause of all the hate towards me. I wouldn't blame them if they started telling me to lose weight. Why do I have to be like this? Why can't I be more like my hyungs? why? why? Why?

I looked myself in the mirrors of the practice room. Dancing. Sweat dripping on my face. My body. So much freaking fat on my body. Yet not being able to get rid of it even with all this training. Sticking with me forever. A forever pain stuck with me.

I wish I was-

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After we finished practicing the first song, we were able to get a ten minute break. When we were told this, I immediately went to the corner of the practice room while my hyungs all rushed to get water. I sat down and leaned against the wall. I was drained. Physically and mentally. I closed my eyes and breathed but it was hard to do so. I didn't eat much in the morning and that was definitely not helping out my problem.

After a few seconds, someone tapped my shoulder. It was Taehyung. 

"Hey," he said as he sat down next to me. He passed me a bottle of water and I took it. I started gulping it down. When was I this thirsty? We both sat in silence while watching the other members fool around. Jimin and Jin were trying to rap Namjoons part  of the song while the rest of the members were laughing at how bad it was.

"You know.", Taehyung started saying, "We were really worried last night. You did leave a note but you didn't give as any details of where you were going to be or who you were going to be with. All of us were stressed and Jimin was even on the verge of tears. Even Yoongi hyung was really worried. We thought something horrible happened. That maybe you were lost, found out by fans, kidnapped, or even worse."

"But-"

"Let me finish Kookie. But we were also in the wrong. We were wrong for screaming at you and not talking about it instead. We were supposed to let you talk and I wished it didn't have to happen like that. I hate it some much when we fight and it really breaks my heart because we aren't supposed to fight and scream at each other like that. We are band members and family. So please, just know that all of us are really sorry. All of us were in the wrong and I really wish we could go back in time so we didn't have to fight like that. I hope we can sit down later and properly talk about it so all of us can make up."

Once he finished talking, he stood up and dusted himself off. He smiled at me one last time and started walking to where the other members were. Right away, they started playing with him. Once again, they were all happily laughing and looked so carefree.

I'll listen to Taehyung. When we get home I'll call them into the living room after dinner and we can talk about what happened last night. I hope we can forgive each other. I just want to be with them again. Like family.