Counting Steps

M O N S T E R

    I failed as a human
Or am utterly one
    An incomparable disgrace
The loss of a son

    I ripped flowers from the garden
Ate all the seeds
    I doused them in mud
And drowned in the weeds

    Stole all the sunlight
Fed it to dragons
    Then watched from the side
As they fell from the heavens

    Snuck to the kitchen
Stole all the bread
    And threw it in dirt so you couldn't be fed

Starved you of your sanity
    Took away all you need
Then locked you up tight
    Where you couldn't be freed

But you still blame god
    For all that I've done
And ask for the strength
    To take care of your son

I hurt you repeatedly
    Made you cry, and yet
You still welcome your use
    As my safety net

So when will it end,
    The betrayel and the pain?
I loved you so much that it drove me insane

    I killed all the doves
And sent them to hell
    All while I smiled
Wishing you well

    I emptied the carton
Poured milk in my eyes
    Then laughed at your jokes
Behind all the lies

    So when does it stop,
The betrayel and the pain?
    I love you so much that it drives me insane.