Half My Love

Chapter 4: Thersa

''Did something bad happen with Tina?" he asked. I was literally so sad when he asked that question.Tina is my sister and I love her more than anything in this world, even more than him.

Well ya!! James was my only secret love from childhood. I loved him so much, and I hated when I saw him sad. Even though I knew he loved Tina, I was never jealous about it because I knew that he deserved a girl better than me. A girl who spend hours in the gym to have the perfect body!! Every guy wished for a girl exactly like Tina. I was always so happy for my sister to have such an amazing man to love her, even though she never realized it. She only dates those basketball jerk boys. James is so handsome even more handsome then any of the jerks my sister has dated but he's not a jerk. My sister is so weird! She only likes guys who treat her badly.

In the past seventeen years of my life I never expected james to have feelings towards me, but today was totally different. I am not a kind of person who gets jealous of people, but when it comes to James I was always so jealous, when girls in my school liked him. My sister is the only girl I am not jealous of. I was always so happy for her and never wished her to be sad. My sister  literally looks like a bad person from the outside, but on the inside she is an innocent, angry child from the world. I don't blame her. She faced so many problems in life that made her become this kind of girl.

But today because I was so over controlled emotionally, I expected James, the most person I loved in this world after my sister and my grandpa, to care about me. But he only cared for Tina. Tina the girl every guy in school loved even Ed. Ed used to have crush on Tina but he literally forgot her when he dated Jessica.
''Well, she's good.'' I said in a very harsh tone. He was so overwhelmed by thinking about Tina to realize it. ''What do you mean she's good?! She has to clean the whole school for one month, and what about her grades?'' he said in a very worried tone that made me regret the feeling of jealousy that was controlling me that I, and only I knew.

Tina never cared care about her grades. She studies only so my grandpa wouldn't get angry at her. ''Don't worry, I will help her pass this month, only this month cause she has to stay after school to clean.'' I say in a tone trying to comfort him, when he suddenly jumps from the bench and gives me a hug and thanks me. ''Ohhh, I see that we have new lovers in school'' Tina says interputing our hug. The most beautiful one I got from anyone. ''No...No...No, of course we are not lovers!! I was just thanking her for helping in my english homework.'' he says. His words hit me and hurt me so hard, that a feeling of sadness overwhelmed me. ''Ohh...yes...yes..its a friendly hug. Don't think anything wrong about it''. I say, lying to myself. ''Ok whatever, I don't care. I want to talk to you privately.'' She says looking at me and James.

I know that deep inside of him he was sad that she didn't care about him. She loved him as a friend not more. I really felt sad for him. I wish I could do something to remove the pain from his heart and take it and put it inside of me so he wouldn't feel it anymore. I really love him so much.

''Ok then, I have to go.'' he says and leaves both of us alone...''Tess, I need your help. That guy named Kevin asked me to go on a date with him tonight. You have to stay in school with Carla and help her clean the school. Please...Please.'' She says in a way I could never say no to her. ''Okay, but what about grandpa? He said we couldn't hangout with anybody until the end of the week.'' I say. ''Don't worry, I called Mr.Gabriel and I told him to invite grandpa over to his house. He won't even realize our absence, believe me.'' She says. I should have known earlier that she wouldn't accept Kevin's date offer unless she was 100 percent sure she would handle the situation with grandpa...