Half My Love

Chapter 7: Thersa

''Titi, I want to talk to you about something, if you don't mind, of course.'' he says. He always makes me fall for him because of how gentle he is. ''Of course, you can talk'' I reply. ''I think that I have waited too long for my relationship with Tina. It's our last year in highschool and I want her to be mine forever.'' His words go deep into me and make me feel so sad that I wish I was the girl he loved this much. Then suddenly I regret my wish. I remember that the girl he loves is my sister. ''And how I can help you?'' I say, feeling less pain than before. ''Ok first, I want you to tell her that someone unknown wants to take you on a date and on the  date day I will reveal myself and confess all my feelings to her''.

These few weeks I had so many fights with her that I forgot to ask her about her relationship with Kevin. I love my sister so much and always wish her the best, but I also love James so much. I can't let anyone hurt him. I never asked her anything about how she feels towards James, so she wouldn't see anything suspicous in my questions. ''Ok, I will tell her, but you should give me some time'' I say. ''Ok,then.."

few weeks passed by and I totally forgot about the dating thing since I had so many tests and I stopped socializing with anyone, even with Jam (Jam is abbreviation for James)   and Ed. High grades were my only way to get full scholarship in college. Even though my grandpa can afford my tuition fees, he always insisted me to get a scholarship.

This morning while I was sitting on the bench reviewing for my test, my sister came and took the book from my  hand. ''Can you please give me my book back?!'' I say in a very angry tone. ''Why are you always so obsessed with getting high grades if pa can afford your tuition fee?'' She asked while handing me my book. ''Well isn't it enough for him raising us all these years when our beloved parents left us behind? From now on, we have to depend on ourselves not on him. He's our grandpa not our father.'' I say regretting every word.

Talking about our parents really hurt my sister. She always missed them so much, even more than I did, but they never bothered to call or visit us. What great parents  are they. My sister and I tried different therapies to help us overcome the emptiness inside of us but they never helped...

''Tina I am sorry I didn't mean to talk about them in front of you. I really didn't mean to hurt you by talking about them'' I say. ''Its okay. In all these years I have accepted the idea that they don't exist in our lives.'' She says. ''Lets change the subject. I wanted to ask you about whom you are going to the prom party with at the end of year.'' Tina adds. "With Ed and you?'' I say. ''I have broken up with Kevin so I don't know yet.'' She says. ''Ohhh..I am sorry for the two of you.'' I say. ''Don't worry we didn't have a very serious relationship'' She says. ''If you have time, can we go outside for lunch today after school? Don't worry I asked pa.'' I say
''Ok, we'll meet after school at Bob's Cafe'' She says. ''Ok I have to go to see Edward he's waiting for me." I say and leave her sitting on the bench drinking her coffee.

Ed really likes chemsrity. It's his favorite subject so he was always busy doing expierments in the laboratory. I entered the labartory to find a red-headed guy wearing a white coat with blue glasses and gloves. ''Are you busy?'' I ask. ''No, just finished. ''He says. We sat on the chairs and I told him everything about James' date idea. ''Thersa why do you always neglect the things you like, want, and love in your life for your sister and grandpa. If you love James then go tell him. Your sister doesn't love him and never will. He's just not her type. That stupid date thing will do nothing expect hurt you all, the three of you.'' He says. ''Ok listen, I only care about my education, family, and friends. My emotions are the last thing I think about" I say in a loud voice. ''Stop lying to yourself and me. I know you so well, even more than you know yourself. Deep inside is a girl who likes to live like any other normal teenager who wants to explore and life and not unsolvable math problems.'' He says ''Ok you're right I have to tell James all my feelings today. I have waited for him all these years and I think it's time to tell him.'' I say. ''Thats my girl!!'' He says, giving me a high five.

Before I went to search for James, I checked my phone and found a message from my sister: ''I am sorry but I can't hangout out with you today. I have something to do after skl''.
''It's okay.''

Then I got another text message from an unknown number. "If you're  looking for James you'll find him in the football ground. It doesn't matter what you feel, what matters is what you'll see ..." My heart starts to race...