Some days...
I'm confident
I can stand on a chair in the middle of class and yell
I can make jokes I'd normally be too nervous to say
I can talk to my crush and ask to work on a project with them
Some days...
I'm shy...too shy
I'm so shy people ask me if I'm okay
I'm so shy that I don't say anything all day
I get so shy that I am physically incapable of talking above a whisper
Some days...
I'm masculine
I bind to hide my strange lumps
I wear a button up shirt and a tie so that people take me seriously
I feel more up to telling people to call me they/them
Some days...
I'm feminine
I put on more makeup to make me look "pretty"
I wear a dress or a skirt that flatters my shape
I feel more up to tell people to call me they/them
Some days...
I look up to living
I can't wait until the day I go off to college
I save money to travel the world with my friends
I smile at my dad even though he thinks I can never do anything right
Some days...
I think I'd be happier dead
I wake up in the middle of the night just to cry until it hurts
I don't say anything to anyone because if I do, I'll start sobbing
I go home and freak out because I have anxiety and depression and my parents don't understand why
Some days...
My parents love each other
Some days...
My mom tells me to pack my stuff
Some days...
I want to tell the world about my problems
Most days...
I stay quiet because I'm too afraid that I'm going to rip my family apart
