I miss you...

You broke your promise

A week later and still no calls or texts from Mark, I was beginning to think he was dead and that's when I remembered I watch his videos every day so..I knew he wasn't. Not hearing from him in so long really took a toll on me I now only add videos on my channel twice a week, I just didn't have the motivation. I decided it was ridiculous to expect Mark to make the first call so I would, what could it hurt right? So that's what I did, my stomach becoming more and more antsy as the phone rang "hello?" I heard the familiar deep voice say "hey Mark! It's me rachel. Long time no see or talk I guess haha" I babbled on, "oh hey rachel, how are you?" I smiled "I'm fine, but what about you? How's Cali life treating you?" There was a pause and then a faint woman's laughter and chatter in the background, I figured it was his tv until he started talking to them "umm good! Uhh, hey I hate to say this but I'm awfully busy so could I call you back later?" My smile went away and the antsy feeling turned into sickness "oh..okay, yeah sure that's fine. I guess I'll catch you later then?" More chattering and laughing went on "definantly, bye!" I didn't even get to say bye before the line went dead... Did he really just blow me off? No, he must've been real busy?

So, the day went on with me watching tv not staring at my phone twenty four seven waiting for Mark to call back...okay maybe a little but I just wanted to know how he was doing, I missed him... I waited and waited but got no call or no text that day, which in my mind read 'I was to busy with Cali hoes to at least text you the fuck back' so with that last thought in my head I went to sleep the most pissed off I've ever been.

The next morning I woke up, I decided I didn't give Mark enough credit and I was being the bitch here...so I checked my phone, No new texts or calls! Surprise fucking surprise! So I came up with a plan, I'd call him right now and if he blows me off again then I know he's moved on..if not then we're good. So I went thru my contacts one by one...then I got to ' Mark Fischbach ' and hit call. I could feel my dread getting deeper as the phone approached its last ring until his voice came on "hello?" I smiled "hey, Mark! It's me, I just remembered you didn't call me back so I'd go ahead and call you!" My mood rose so much just by hearing him "oh rachel! Yeah, sorry about that I totally lost track of time yesterday!" That explains that! "Oh it's fine happens to me all the time!" I waited for him to speak "I'm sorry rachel" I'm confused..."for what?" I waited again..."I have to go again, I'll call you back later I promise!" My hope in rekindling our friendship shook a little "oh, okay I'll be waiting haha" he gave a small laugh "okay, bye-bye!" He did his outro! Awww "bye!" And again that was it...

Five hours later I just stopped pretending he was going to call I decided to hop onto my Twitter and creep on him a while, I discovered he'd been on for a while now sooo maybe he was waiting to make sure I was awake so I decided to tweet a little random something to at least give him a heads up that I'm up, now...hmmm what should it be? Ooh! "Well, thanks for the wake up call neighbors! #sarcasm" let's hope the neighbors weren't fans, and now to play the waiting game...over a thousand favorites and six hundred retweets later and still nothing from Mark... This isn't looking good.

I wanted to call him, but was terrified to seem creepy I mean we were inseparable and now it's like he couldn't give a fuck about me, was I that replaceable? I'm just being crazy I'll call Mark and talk to him now I mean he's on Twitter sooo... He can't be busy right? So I selected his contact and listened to the ring "hello?" Yay! "Hey Mark!" I heard a sigh, was that him? Was he tired of me?! "Oh, hey Rachel sorry for not getting back to you sooner I've just been so busy you know?" Uh huh.."yeah I get it! But I remembered to call back so it's fine!" It felt good to talk to him, he cleared his throat "man, I can't believe how much I miss that sound" I thought out loud "what?" I realized I spoke it out loud "oh, I miss you is all, ya know? How we used to just watch tv or play games or talk..it's lonely here" I said truthfully "oh my gosh! I hate to do this but, I have another call coming in!" Are you serious? "Can't you call them back? I mean we haven't talked in forever", "I'll call you back okay?!" He yelled annoyed and the phone line went dead as I stood there with the phone up to my ear crying.."y-you broke your pr-promise, please Mark! Please! I love you..." I realized he couldn't hear me, I was talking to static.

Is this the end of our friendship?