•Imagines•

××You Saved Me××

A/n: Warning this imagine will have self harming and harsh words.

(Louis Tomlinson imagine)

Y/n's P.o.v.

"I can't believe you actually like those gay idiots?" Someone insults my favorite band but I just ignore them and walk away.

I've been bullied since grade four and it hasn't stopped. I'm currently in my last year of high school. Ever since people found out I like One Direction the bullying got worse. Not only was it verbal abuse but it was physical and cyber bullying also. I had to delete my Twitter once a month because the bullying never stopped, my classmates would eventually find my new Twitter and tweet horrible things to me. The only thing that helps is One Direction and my blade. Yes I do self harm almost everyday, I think it takes the pain away but it only does for a little. Then the pain comes back again and I have to do it some more. I don't have friends not even acquaintances, I like being alone but I hate feeling lonely I don't know how to explain it it's just the way I am. I've never had a boyfriend no boys ever liked me, but I thought who would like a depressed girl who lives for nothing?

My mom is the only one I have since dad left us both, men are something I know nothing about never really having a male figure in my life. I blame myself for him leaving even though my mom says it's not my fault. I never believe her I know its my fault, he never wanted kids then I came along and he was gone. All my mom does is spend the day at work avoiding me, when she gets home she goes to sleep ignoring everyone and everything. I know she doesn't fall asleep right away because I hear her cry herself to sleep many nights. I also cry myself to sleep but quietly, I'm too afraid to wake someone up or bother my mom with my problems. My life isn't easy I'm poor, not good in school and get bullied. Life is hard for me but I have no choice to live it, because the only people keeping me alive are those five idiots that sing like angels. I would probably be dead right now if it wasn't for them, they are everything to me. I walk home slowly feeling nothing but emptiness surrounding me as I walk down the street. The feeling being left to my thoughts scares me so I put my earphones in my iPod putting my earphones in my ears. I blast One Direction music all the way home, as soon as the song Diana comes on I smile softly because I am Diana. The only difference is I'm still alive sadly.

As soon as I get home I drop everything on my bedroom floor. I lay on my bed my body feeling so sore. I lay down on my back and stare up at the ceiling. I mouth the words to Diana as it plays, slowly my eyes get droopy but they snap open when my iPod lights up. I may be poor but I saved up for an iPod, iPod's are handy. I see that someone followed me on Twitter, I open my ipod and check my Twitter, someone named Carrotking92 followed me. I check there profile and it didn't have much. There is a pictures of a drawn carrot as his profile picture. The background pictures said FABULOUS in big bold letters. He had very few tweets and only four pictures. There is a picture of One direction and the rest were random pictures of stuff I assume he likes. I decided to follow him back for fun, after I followed him I locked my iPod. I continued to listen to my music while staring at the ceiling. Slowly my eyelids got heavier and heavier until eventually they just closed.

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I was woken up by the sound of birds chirping which means it's morning. Wow I went to bed early yesterday, but at least it's the weekend! I check my iPod and it says twelve forty five. I get out of bed and head into my bathroom across the hall. While I'm in the shower I think about everything. Life, school, bullies but I mostly try to focus on One Direction. They are my saviors especially Louis Tomlinson. His angelic voice took away all the pain and made me feel as if it was only the two of us in the room. Nothing mattered when he sang the only thing on my mind is Louis. But sadly I wouldn't get to see them in concert. The tickets were crazy expensive and I barely had enough money to live. I decided to get dressed in grey sweatpants and put on a black v-neck. I grab my iPod and go on Twitter, I decide to tweet since I have nothing better to do on a Saturday afternoon. I didn't have school to thank god, so I'm pretty happy, it's always easier being out of school.