"Why Did You Have To Go?" A Billie Eilish Story (ON HOLD)

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HARTLY P.O.V. 

Today's the day. I'm gonna do it. I had it all planned out. 

BILLIE P.O.V.

Today's the day. I'm gonna do it. I had it all planned out. 

HARTLY P.O.V. 

The letter, the pills, the time, everything. I was going to do it. I was sick and tired of living like this. Billie left me. I tried texting her but obviously she keeps deleting it. My parents don't want me. Rickey left the city. I was all alone. No one could help me. I couldn't stand being in my body, my mind, my own skin. It made me remember all the things Billie did to me. How she left me. I wonder if she feels any remorse at all. I wish she could see me and see how much she hurt me.

BILLIE P.O.V.

I was going to go when Dani left to go to the party. I was going to take my car, go to her doorstep and apologize for everything. I hope she's ok. I hope she isn't doing anything to harm herself. 

"Billie! I'm leaving now. Bye!"

"Bye!"

After she left and I saw the car pull out of the drive way I made my way to my own car and started heading to Hartly's house to explain everything.

HARTLY P.O.V. 

When the clock hit 7:00 p.m. I started making my way upstairs to get ready to end my life. As I got to my room, I opened the door and went to the bathroom to get the pills. I already had a bottle of water at my table beside my bed. As I took out the pills from the bottle there was a light knock at the door. Who would want to see me now?

BILLIE P.O.V.

As I'm driving to her house I started to think about things I would tell say to her. I really missed she made me feel so happy, even when I was sad. I loved her honestly, but the way we ended thing weren't on the right terms. She probably thought I choose Danielle over. I just wanted to think about my decision before I answered her. I didn't want her to think that I don't want her. I loved I absolutely loved her. I hope she knows that. 

When  I got to her driveway I hopped out of my car and knocked on the door lightly. Even though I had an extra key I decided to knock to be polite. I heard a small feet running down the stairs. When she finally opened the door she looked shocked. I studied her face slightly. Her eyes had bags underneath them. Her arms were covered in marks from cutting. Her body was thin and fine. Made her looked like she hadn't eaten in days. 

"Why are you hear?", she asked her voice sounding hoarse. Possibly from all the crying. 

"I want to explain everything Hartly. I just want to explain why I left-"

"You want fucking explain now! You left me here! Alone Billie! ALONE! I had no one to tell it was going to be fine to hold me to comfort me-" she said cutting me off and started to break out in tears. 

"Hartly. Look I'm really really sorry I have a good reason why I didn't come to tell you that I wanted to choose you, but you need to let me explain everything that happened."

"Fine.", she said coming outside sitting on the doorstep."

~After I explained everything~

"So your saying that Danielle made you stay inside ifyour not with her, deleted my contact, and drugged you?"

"Yes. She did all of those things to keep me away from you."

"Wow. Well I'm glad you explained but I think it would be the best if we stayed friends for now."

"That's possibly for the best."

"You can stay over if you want."

"Really?"

She nodded her head. 

"Thanks Hartly."