Piece by Piece

a father could stay

Piece of me now realized I needed this the rest of me, however, was happy to continue living as I have been with Jamieson I but it wasn't just me that was involved Jamie he has a say and I'm pretty sure he would want to have a normal relationship my demand to jack was one that he couldn't refuse I was here to advance my relationship get justice for my mother's broken heart and an understanding I kept  a straight face and walked in I wasn't sure if he had spoken I was too busy with my thought I just stood there looking and that man and he stood looking at me then turned and walked into the kitchen I followed 

"okay email you have my attention what do you want to know"

"well jack it's simple actually I want to know why"

"ok I'm honest and a to the point type of man I don't have an answer to that question other than I wasn't happy but I am willing to tell you my story you said you want to know my side and well I will tell it if you will listen 

i simply nod my head 

"i loved your mother we were made for each other we were everything we were it for each other when you came when we found out she was pregnant we were terrified but we could get through it she knew without a shadow of a doubt I well I was young I want so sure but we got thru nine months of pregnancy and seven hours of labor and then the sleepless nights I wasn't the best you didn't know that though she made sure you didn't she never showed it or let me every argument was had in a hushed whispered behind a closed-door she constantly had to make the effort for The both us everything we did together she planned it caused a lot of issues for me but eventually we fell in routine and one day we just stopped arguing but everything stayed the same we loved each other though even still and at night on those really hard days we...we didn't argue anymore it was pointless we didn't even talk about it anymore we just would be together 

I understood what he was saying without saying they had sex that was how they got out there anger the frustration so I nodded my head for him to continue 

so we lived our picture-perfect life but we were not happy it took your mother two months to tell me she was pregnant again it changed nothing I loved your mother and I wanted it to work but two kids now and we weren't even happy anymore but I didn't leave I want to try so we got thru anymore nine months another labor but one day after the hospital she says to me jack you need to be a man you are a father be one and I knew I couldn't especially when I wasn't happy so it was then I decided to leave 

"you weren't happy you know I remember that night I remember those words but you could be a father to your children was is Jamieson you were a father to him"

"okay so about a year and a half after leaving I meant molly she made to feel the like your mother once did so I stuck around I didn't learn about Jamieson tell another six months later I was in shocked I told her I needed time to figure things out almost a month passed she visited me at work she asked me for a favor she wanted someone with her when social services came to pick up jamieson I asked why was she doingthis she informed me this was something she been thinking about and wanting to do way before I was in her life she told me she knew wasnt cut outto be a parent she tried cause she wanted to be wrong but it was too hard on her and she wasnt happy she could raise  a child she resented so I agreed there was about a week before jamieson was leaving and well I wanted him to know his mother cared for him and wanted the best for him so I made sure we all spent those days together doing things as a family and when it came the day for him to leave I called social services and told them we no longer required their servies i just kept thinking by doing this i was some how righting a wrong i explained this to molly that was how i told her about you ad toby i then asked her to marry me and we have been happy ever since "

I was in tears hearing this was hard " Jack thank you, my mother, loved you and wanted you to be the man no be the father she knew you could be with us I am glad you could give her that molly made you feel needed she made you feel like a man and stepped up and became one Jamieson is a great guy and now he is that way despite you that night you came back and I was here with toby you had a chance to make things right with us and you still even after all these years after raising a child you still weren't man enough and Jamieson realized then what i am only now realizing you have no room in your heart for true love your pride and ego will always be in the way thank you for telling me the truth Jack you made your choices with no regrets and I no longer am holding that agaisnt you but I know you will come to regret not helping us out when you had the chance not only did you lose your biological children again but you lost Jamieson to goodbye Jack 

and with that I walked away and didn't look back I got what I came for and now I'm going home to my brother and my boyfriend one I knew without a shadow of a doubt would never hurt me m not naive enough to think we will be together forever but he will also be a huge part of my growth and as a girl in love I do hope we will be together for many many years to come