Piece by Piece

8. A Man Can be Kind

the ride back to Jamie house was quiet i wanted to know exactly what he meant when he told Valerie he would leave her because of me but i didn't have enough guts to when we got to his room after an  awkward elevator ride we heard laughs coming from Toby's room remembering Jamie had his friend come over while we were gone "Toby were back" i said loud enough for him to hear me after a few seconds Toby and a very attracted male came from the room "so how was it do i get to see pictures"--"it was good i guess i had fun and i don't know about pictures you'll have to ask Jamieson" we walk into the kitchen where Jamie is and he turns around "oh hey Kyle this is Emily my step sister and Emily this is Kyle my best friend" "hey" we say to each other "best friend huh how did that happen" i asked curiously because i never had one "well" Kyle begins to speak "it was Jamie's first day of his photography career and none of the other models wanted the newbie to take their pics thinking he didn't know what he was doing so of course i ended up with him i didn't  mind though because there is no way i can take a bad picture so anyway he's all cool and calm but we get to the room and i get ready he freaks the hell out completely spas"--"why" Jamieson i the one to answer my question "this bastard is a nude model dude was fucking naked" everyone burst out laughing except Jamie "but did y'all become best friends" Toby asked my original question "well it kinda of just happened his pictures came out great better than what I thought they would now he is the only person I allow to take my pictures we started to hang out outside of work and now I don't know what I would do without the dude "awe so sweet" I coe at them Kyle orders pizza for lunch while we wait we have conversations about everything and nothing "oh did you see Valerie" kyle asks randomly Jamie replies before I could "don't mention that her name again"-- 'and why not what happened " --"that BITCH had the nerve to insult Emily"-- "and what did you do"--"nothing but state the truth and nothing but the truth and i think the message got through to her" i wanted to ask him what the message was exactly but decided against it  when Jamieson and i make eye contact we stare at each other far  little bit until kyle cleared his throat i looked down blushing and kyle spoke "is there something going on between you two?'

Jamieson pov

"is there something going on between you two?" kyle asked is there...no could there be.. maybe I don't know would i like there to be... hell yeah i would everyone was looking at me while I was looking at her I just couldn't bring myself to actually answer kyle "no" Emily softly answered and I felt hurt even though it was the truth she's my step sister even though jack disowned them i guess I'm just scared to make a move because I don't know how she feels after being in a relationship where the love ran out long ago I'm just ready for something to last and I think I could have that with Emily if she felt anything for me earlier when Valerie was talking about Emily something in me snapped I was furious I know Emily heard what I said because I heard her gasp and since she hasn't asked about it I figured she doesn't feel the same kyle was looking at me strange  toby and Emily were no longer at the table I feel like I missed something "aye Jamie you good"--"yeah why wassup"--nothing you just zoned out but I gotta ask you something"--"wassup"--"you sure nothing going on between you and Emily"--"why"--"well cause she seem cool even though I just met her she as an incredible personality plus she's hot but if yall got something going on i don't wanna get in the way of that" shit fuck I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place I can't say to kyle there's nothing going on then say but you can't date her so I do the only thing I can do "oh go for it, man"--"really"--yeah she's my sister though so know funny business"--"okay man ill see you tomorrow ill ask her out then" I reply okay and he's gone I go to Tobys room he playing I join him........ we been playing for a few hours it's now dark outside and I haven't seen Emily since kyle was here she hasn't even checked on toby i leave the room and go into ours without knocking on the door to find Emily on the bed wrapped in a towel writing something she didn't notice my presence because she  was so focused on what she was doing i slowly walked closer to her careful not to make a noise i got close enough to see the end of what she was writing  ill do for you like you do for me love hard love for always and love completely  when she looks up she screams seeing me for the first time since i entered the room "omg Jamieson what are you doing i don't have any clothes on " i didn't have a chance to say anything because she started running towards the bathroom i followed after her grabbing her arm before she reached the bathroom i turned her around to face me and her towel almost fell but she  kept it up with her free hand "Ja-Jamie what are y-you do-doing" her stuttering voice came out low and i could tell she was nervous in this moment i wanted to say so many things and do so many things but i just stood there god i have never been so scared over not knowing a girl's feelings for me before Valerie and i started dating girls just through themselves at me fueling my ego and cockiness but now with Emily it's different i stood there in my thoughts with my hand still on her arm she tried to move but my grip tighten just a little bit not wanting to hurt her Jamieson let me g-- she was interrupted by my lips on hers she was shocked and not responding and after a few more seconds of nothing i slowly pull away until she brings her body close to mine again and kisses me i responded immediately enjoying the moment soon we pull away panting a little "Jamie " was all she said " say no tomorrow and then we and talk about this"--"huh say no to what" i simply repeated what i previously said giving her no further explanation

Emily pov

he kissed me i kissed him then he just leaves saying say no tomorrow then we'll talk what the fuck you can't just give a girl her first kiss and leave I don't understand what just happened I make my way to the bathroom frustrated I take a quick shower and go back to the room I get dressed in my pajamas and open my journal to the page I wrote earlier  Dear momma today was crazy you see toby and I are now living with Jamieson and this morning I was the model for his photo shoot it made me feel like I found another hobby besides poetry but I don't know I just think I'm model material anyway that wasn't even the weird part Jamie had an argument with his ex-girlfriend and he pretty much told her he would break up with her for me if they were still together isn't that insane but moving its been a long time since I wrote my last poem so here you go

memorize me with your personality your plans hopes and dreams memorize me with spirit heart and soul memorize me in ways others can't be different be real share with me parts of you no one else knows and ill do the same do the same with you we'll be each others go to each others uplifters ill do for you like you do for me love hard love completely and love for always

P.S momma as I read the poem I realized even though I never had affection from a male before i crave it on a physical and emotional level I want it from Jamie  and after the kiss we just shared I think he could be the one I experience it with

NEXT MORNING.....Jamie didn't sleep on the pull-out couch in his room I stayed up waiting for him to come back in the room so we could talk but he never did it's early not even eight a.m. so I get up to cook breakfast there is a note a the refrigerator Good morning I had to go to work for another shoot and pick the pictures for my spread ill be back by ten and kyle is coming  so that gives me two hours I go watch tv instead of  making breakfast right now Toby's awake and it's been an hour I go and start breakfast I make pancakes eggs sausage enough to feed six people because Jamie eats enough to feed two ( doesn't eat during the day and has a normal sized dinner) the guys arrive shortly after the food was done we all sat at the table enjoying breakfast in silence the tension is practically screaming yet we just stayed quiet Jamie kept sneaking glances at me it was weird I haven't seen him since our kiss last night and all I wanted to do was feel his lips on mine once again over and over again i think changed my mind about not wanting to fall in love i have a crush on my step brother and i very well realize he could break my heart yet for some reason it seems to be worth the risk i let out a sigh and all eyes were on me "Emily are you alright" toby asked with concern in his voice "yeah why"--"well you zoned out and kyle asked you a question"--"oh I'm sorry kyle what was it you asked me"--"hmm i asked would you let me take you out one day this week"--"like on a date"--"yeah if you want" he said rubbing the back of his neck i thought for a moment first .... my first date kyle is asking me out on my first date kyle a.k.a my first kiss best friend is asking me out on a date wait....is this what Jamie was talking about say no to i quickly took a glance at Jamie and he was staring at me intently with pleading eyes this is what he meant oh no what am i going to do Jamie is my step brother and yes i like him but he couldn't possibly feel the same way about me a kiss only means he is attracted to me it is a physical thing for him even if it wasn't he is still my step brother if was to start a relationship we would get so much hate and judgment i smile even though i know it is fake i try not to show it "sorry kyle i didn't mean to zone out again i was just a little taken back by your question i hope you can forgive me you have only known me for one day and asking me on my first date" both kyle's and Jamie's eyes went wide at the last part of my statement i cringed at the fact Jamieson must have put two and two together getting four meaning if i was only now being asked out for the first time then last night was my first kiss "sorry again I'm babbling now but hmm yes if you still want to i would like to go out with you"--"yeah i wouldn't i"--because I never been on a date"--"Emily all that means is I'm the first to show you a man can be kind" but that's not true I thought to myself